Forever and Always (ereri)

Trying to forget you

*8 year's later*

Eren's P.O.V

'As the time passes people change and feelings too.... I love you Eren!!'

"Levi?!" I yell. Yep I'm still in my room, it was just another dream. I look at the clock and it was ringing. Stop it you son of a bitch!! I pull the plug of the clock, ugh another day of school. It's been 8 year's since Levi left, still I'm thinking and dreaming about him. Ever sice he left my life has been miserable, I've been in a great depression that nothing can make me happy. 

I've been having this dreams about what happened that day and I still don't forget it. I haven't been able to forget him not even for a second, he's probably happy with somebody and I'm still thinking about him, how dumb. It's already 6:30 and I need to be at school at 7, ugh I need to get ready.

I don't have time to take a bath so I'll take one later after school. I grab a blue shirt that was on the floor, some jeans and black converse. I wash my face and brush my teeth's, I look in the mirror and see that my hair is messy. It doesn't matters I like it this way, so I run to downstairs grab a apple and head towards the door.

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"Hey Eren" I was greeted by my friend Armin. He became my friend 1 year after Levi left, now he's my only friend I have I hope he doesn't do the same like Levi. "Hey Armin" I said. "What's wrong? You sound sad let me guess, another dream?" Armin said. He knows about Levi cause I told him but I never told him that I love him and all that happened the day he left. I didn't said it cause I don't want him to stop being my friend just because I'm gay, though I don't think Armin would do that he's my friend.

"Yeah" I said. "Dam Eren how many times are you going to have the same dream?" Armin said. "I don't know, I just hope it ends soon" I said and look down. "Yeah I hope too, it's already been 8 year's and you can't still forget about him" Armin said. "Yeah I know Armin" I said. "Look forget about it, let's just go to the classroom" Armin said and started to walk. "Yeah let's go".

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"Ugh thank god that's over" I said. "Oh come on it wasn't that bad" Armin said. "Well yeah for you cause you're the smartass of the school" I said mockingly. "Whatever Eren" Armin said crossing his arm's. "Hey Armin do you want to come to my house" I ask. "Umm yeah sure" Armin said. So we walk all the way to my house.

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(sorry if I'm skipping so much is that these parts are boring)

"So what do you want to do Armin? We have no homework so we could play some video games or I don't know whatever you want" I said. "Eren now that I'm thinking about it, I think you like Levi more than a friend" Armin said sitting in the couch. Wait does he knows? I never told him that I loved (and still do) Levi, so how can he be saying that? "Umm why do you say that?" I ask. "Cause you've been having dreams about him sice he left and you can't stop thinking about him. Every single day you mention his name, I'm I not right?" Armin said. "Y-yes you're right Armin" I sit next to him in the couch. 

"I loved him and I still do, I just can't get him out my head, even how hard I try I just can't" I look down in shame. "Why didn't you told me before, it was a bit obvious but still?" I heard Armin say, I could feel that he was looking at me but I don't want to look at him cause I would feel guilty immediately. "I'm sorry Armin I was just scared that you were going to judge me and you would stop being my friend" I said without looking at him. "Don't worry Eren I get it, but I will always be your friend no matter what" Armin said. 

'Eren I know how you feel, trust me' Levi's words kept playing inside my head. "Eren!" I heard and snapped out of my daze. "You're still thinking about him right?" Armin ask, I nod. "Armin I just can't stop thinking about him" I said. "Look Eren I know you can't stop thinking about about him but you just have to. It's already been 8 years and you still can't forget him, he must be very far away who knows what haves he done with himself. You don't know if he's still alive or where the fuck is he" Armin said and I look at him in the face. Armin is right but still, he doesn't knows what it is. 

Armin sigh and put a hand on his mouth he remove his hand and was about to say something but he thought about it before saying it, I could see his frustration in the look of his face but I could also see sadness. "Eren you're still here thinking about him... and maybe he's already h-happy with someone.. e-else" Armin look down. "Wha- why do you say that?" I said and tear's start to escape from my eye's. "Eren I'm sorry but it's the truth" Armin said. I can't believe he just said that, how could he?! 

"You just don't get it, nobody gets me!! NOBODY DOES" I yell as more tears started to fall down. "Eren I'm s-" Armin said but I cut him off. "Armin you don't get it and you'll never will!!" I said. "It's ok, I'll give you some time alone" Armin got up and started to walk towards the door. "Just to let you know there are people who love you and there closer than you think" Armin said and left the house. 

Why does this happen to me?! I just want to be happy!! Why can I just forget about Levi already, just why?! I'm here suffering because of something that happened 8 years ago, I'm so pathetic! Maybe Armin is right, maybe Levi is already happy with someone else and I'm here still thinking of him like a stupid motherfucker. More tears kept falling, why can't I just stop loving you Levi?

.....? P.O.V

I love you....

Awww my titan baby is sad T^T. But ohh who said that? Hehehehe I guess you'll never know XD or maybe you will know -_- mhh maybe... But I hope you like it and sorry for the wait I'll try to update in these days I just need some creativity ;)

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