Greyson Brown (boyxboy)

Chapter 10

My body feels like it weighs a ton. Slowly I opened my eyes and immediately fell back to sleep.

"Hey, you're missing school, dumbass." Dylan said banging on my door with a groan. I stayed wrapped in my sheets and in bed.

As I fell asleep, I remembered Marie's beautiful smile. What would she tell me right now?

To get up.

But I don't want to.

Man, I miss her so much. Yesterday was so nice, but it feels like this dream is crashing down. This dream of me having actual friends.

Friends.

I don't have friends. I can't have any friends.

Marie's laugh entered my mind and I can just imagine her sitting on the edge of my bed rolling her eyes.

"You're so over dramatic." She would have said. Rolling my eyes and felt a weight on my chest.

"Shut up." I whispered and missed the light she brought into my life. I miss having her here with me. I miss being happy. I miss my old life. I hate it here.

"You have Ian and Greyson." Shell say.

"They're going to leave. Greyson is my childhood bully, I can't be friends with him."

"You had sex with him." She smirked.

"It was a mistake!" I yelled sitting up on my bed. Looking at the spot where she always sat, always used to sit at.

I can't! I screamed and threw a pillow where I can just see her. A scream came out of my mouth. I didn't think it was in there, but it was and it came out.

A loud, ear ringing scream.

Dylan ran into my room, his left leg trailing behind as he slammed open my door.

"Adrien!" He yelled shaking my body, I couldn't help but weakly fall into the crook of his neck. My hands shakily held onto him. "Adrien! Snap out of it!"

But I couldn't stop screaming. I can't stop.

Mom. Dad. Marie. It's too much! It's all too much! Shaking my head, I screamed some more, finally letting everything out.

It's as if I was as cold as winter's ice and yesterday's warmth is melting the cold exterior. But it hurts.

It hurts so much.

Greyson came into my line of sight and he held onto me, rocking me back and forth. His hand ran through my hair, playing with it.

He is so warm. His body is so strong.

Opening my eyes, I looked into his hazel eyes. "G-Grey?"

"I'm right here." He whispered kissing the top of my head. I fully relaxed into his arms and felt myself fall asleep again.

Waking back up, everyone was in my room. Greyson was sitting down, his back against the bed frame and my body on his lap.

Ian was sitting down, leaning against the wall reading a book from my book shelf. And Dylan was on his phone, half asleep.

"What happened?" I whispered feeling more exhausted than this morning. Greyson looked down at me and smiled a reassuring smile.

"You had a panic attack, but it lasted longer than the ones you used to get." Greyson said with a sigh. "I didn't know you still have them."

"I don't!" I exclaimed and looked over at Dylan who didn't meet my eyes. He told them. Wait, no.

Greyson has been with me through one of them. It was when he picked me up. I had called Marie but she couldn't drive, so it was Greyson who came and got me. But that was circumstantial.

"It's ok-"

"I don't have them okay? It was just this one time." I defended and felt embarrassed they were here. "What are you doing?"

"I was worried, you didn't show up to school." He said honestly. His honesty always so upfront. He doesn't hide his opinions or thoughts.

"Well, you shouldn't have. I have everything under control." I said standing from my bed and held onto the wall for support. "Get out, please."

"Don't have to tell me twice." Dylan said and limped out of my room. I rolled my eyes and turned back towards the boys.

"Get out, please." I whispered, not wanting to meet their eyes. I don't want them to get anywhere near me. I don't want them to get any closer than what they've already managed to.

"No." Greyson said standing up from the bed and practically cornered me.

"Get out, please, I-I just need space." I whispered again and felt my voice quiver.

"Talk to us." Ian said in a gentle tone, much nicer than Greyson's.

"Why? To help fulfill your guilt? To help you gain some closure? Well, you're not going to get the forgiveness from me-"

"Adrien!" Greyson yelled grabbing onto my arm to make me turn towards him.

"And why are you friends with me anyways? You've always hated me from the second we met. You've bullied me and made my life a living hell. So what? All it took was me sleeping with you to change that?" I whispered and came close to his face. "Im never going to love you, okay? Never."

I got out of his grip and turned away, facing the window. "Get out!"

"No." Greyson's voice said, determined even after I insulted him. What can I do to make him just go away! I don't want to see him!

"Get out!" I yelled feeling myself cry again. "Get out! Now! I don't want to see you! Please!"

"We said no, Adrien! We're your friends and friends don't leave!" Ian yelled, but it was Greyson to make the first step near me. His warm arms wrapped around me, holding onto me as I cried.

"Please leave, I-I c-can't." I can't be friends with you.

"No, we're not leaving. Not now and not ever." Greyson whispered into my ear making me cry even more. Ian gently grabbed onto my face, not bothered by the ears and snot running down my face, and smiled.

"We're not leaving, okay?" He whispered wiping away my tears. I nodded and grabbed onto greyson's arms that were wrapped around me and leaned my head back into his chest. "I'll give you guys some alone time."

Greyson didn't respond and turned me around. "I care about you, okay?"

This time he grabbed onto my face and smiled. His eyes looked so beautiful. I nodded my head and tried to wipe away my tears.

"Why?" I whispered and watched as he laughed, running a hand through my hair.

"How can I not?" He confessed.

"It's pretty easy." I whispered looking down at the ground.

"Not for me." He continued.

"You're going to run eventually." Leaning closer to him, I felt the air tighten between us.

"I don't scare easy." He bit my lip.

"But I'm a self destructive bitch." I licked the side of his beautiful lips.

"I'm not going anywhere, Adrien." He said, his hand on the back of my head. Closing my eyes, I felt myself fall.

I'm falling more and more. The heat is rising more and more. The coldness is melting away more and more.

Wrapping my arms around his neck, I moaned when he pushed me against the wall, his other hand roaming my body.

"Don't make promises you can't keep, Grey."

"I didn't."