Greyson Brown (boyxboy)

Chapter 14

It was a nice sunny day, with few to no clouds in the air. I can't believe how perfect a day could be. It was 70 degrees and I knew she knew I was coming to see her.

Her favorite flowers were in my hands, petunias. After the Starstruck movie with the car named petunia.

Sitting down across from her, I lined my fingers across her name.

She was named after Marie Antoinette. And so she loved in the episodes of Gossip where she was mentioned. Her favorite character was Blair.

"I miss you, Marie." I whispered laying down onto the grass across from the grave. "Like a lot. And I know it's weird, you're not here and yet I'm talking aloud. But I need to let you go."

I cried and held onto my stomach. "I really do need to let you go. You'll always be in my heart. But I need you to let me go. I need to be able to make friends and have a life, okay? I have to. And I don't want to be scared anymore. I don't want to feel like I'm betraying you every time I'm nice to someone. I don't want to feel like I'm betraying you every single time I laugh or every single time I smile."

I miss her smile and her laugh. "I can't keep living on like this. Alone. I can't, I really can't. I don't want to be a bitch."

"I don't want to be alone." I admitted wiping away my tears. "I don't want to live alone anymore. It's too hard. I have people in my life that I want to love, that I want to tell them that I love them. Greyson and Ian. I want to love them."

No matter how hard it feels.

"But sometimes I really can't stop thinking about the phone call. Greyson calling me and telling me what happened. Sometimes I wish I never picked up the phone knowing it was Greyson. Sometimes I wish I could forget the time we had together. But that's imposible. And I wouldn't want that to happen."

Forgetting Marie would be forgetting who I am. Forgetting how I became the way I am.

"And I love you. I'll always love you. But I have to move on. I have to keep living my life." I whispered and kissed the grave. "But I'll never forget you."

It feels like she's standing over me with her hand on my shoulder. I can feel her.

I wish she were here.

"I'll always love you." I cried shaking my head. "I'll always love you, Marie."

Wiping away my tears, I ran away knowing I can't turn back. I can't regret my decision. I can't.

I picked up my phone and sat at the curb.

"Adrien?" I heard Greysons voice ask through the phone. I cried into it and shook my head.

"Can you come get me?" I whispered trying to fight off the growing panic. "Please?"

"I'm coming, where are you?" Greyson asked, I can hear background voices, probably Ian. "Where are you, baby?"

"I'm with Marie." I cried holding onto my heart as if it was just ripped out of me. "I'm with Marie."

"I'm coming. Stay on the phone with me." Greyson said, I can hear the car starting. Crying even harder, I felt like a wound was healing. I feel like I just ripped off a long left bandaid and now I'm healing.

Like this last layer of ice is finally melting and I'm ready to let the heat in, completely.

"Greyson, I-"

"I'm almost there." He said, closing my eyes, I tried to breath. But with each intake of breath, it felt like my lungs were ripping more and more. It hurts so bad.

Hands were on my shoulders and shook me out of it. "I'm here."

"Grey?" I whispered wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling him into me. "Tell me you won't leave me, Grey. Please tell me you won't leave me."

"I won't leave you, baby. I'll never leave you, Adrien." Greyson said, his hand in my hair and the other held me steady. I'm safe in his arms. I'm safe whenever I'm with him.

Ian came behind me and hugged me, pancaking me between the two. I'm home with them.

Wiping away my tears, I nodded my head and looked up at them.

"Want to get out of here?" Greyson asked helping me up. I nodded my head as Ian opened the passenger seat.

Hoping in, Greyson closed it behind me and got into the drivers side. Ian going into the back. We drove to my house and I grabbed a change of clothes.

"I'm going with Greyson for the weekend." I said to Dylan and watched as he looked at me with shock. "What?"

"Oh, nothing. Have fun! And be safe and don't stay out too late and text me when you get to wherever you're going. Please?" He shyly asked. I smiled and went over to him, hugging him.

"Of course." I said walking back outside and to the car. Hoping in, I leaned against the door and put my bag to my feet. We turned the music up high and I feel free.

We drove halfway to New York but stopped at this empty gas station. It looks kind of sketchy. Greyson left first and practically ran inside to the bathroom. Sitting in the car, I looked down at my hands, not exactly sure what to say to Ian.

We both left the car in silence and walked the halls. Greyson must be taking a shit.

"Look-" we both said at the same time and smiled at each other. "You first-"

"Ok, so I should have asked first about having Zoe join." Ian said with a chuckle. "I should have known it may have been uncomfortable for not only Greyson, but you too, to be flirting with someone. To be with anyone other than Marie. But I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry and that-"

"It's completely normal to move on." I finished for him and looked up at him with a smile. "It's normal to move on and that's not why I was upset. It's just that, you know? I haven't exactly opened up to anyone other than those I knew before Marie and it's hard. But I want you to find love, Ian. So if Zoe is who you like, I'm fine with that or whoever you like."

"You mean that?" Ian asked with a shy smile. I nodded my head and was surprised when he took me into his arms. "You don't know how much that means to me."

I laughed and hugged him back. "Of course."

"And you should have a talk with Greyson, he's been a bit depressed." Ian said pulling away and grabbed some snacks for the hotel. I nodded my head and grabbed the drinks. Walking to the cashier, Greyson came out of the bathroom and paid for the drinks. Ian protested, but it was pointless.

"You're paying for the hotel, we're square." Greyson simply stated, leading the way back to the car. I grabbed the bags from him and watched as he avoided my gaze.

With a sigh, we pulled up to the hotel first that was in the middle of the city.

Once we got settled in, we all shared a look before heading out.