Special seventeen

Facing it 😒

          Do it
   That thing you're scared to do
But you know is the right thing to do. Just do it and it will be surprising, the kind of relief you'll get or just how easy it is.

   I knew it wasn't going to be easy but i didn't expect it to be this hard too.

It's been two weeks since I gave my life to christ and i find myself radiating with joy more often.

Just that i don't think i can be up to 99.9% like christ.

Right now I'm aspiring for 60% like christ.

I've started reading my bible daily but i decided to start from the new testament which i believe as more of the stories of Jesus Christ.

Most times i forget i didn't read my bible until the next day.

When i remember, i read more than one chapter to cover up.

Sometimes i get back to my old habits like being disrespectful or rude.

But i thank God that afterwards i realise my mistake and ask God for forgiveness.

I already memorized this bible verse and it has been helpful.

1john 1;9
        ' if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.'

  Once again I'm stuck with going to give princess her food.

We all woke up late, so mum asked me to prepare rice as there is stew.  I am to go give her in school.

Mum had said it like i never told her that i didn't want to go to my former school.

I didn't even bother to argue or explain.

I knew i couldn't escape it anymore as far as i haven't gone to college and the school isn't so far from home.

Besides i don't owe anybody a dime so what's my stress, i cautioned myself as I took her lunch bag and went out of the house.

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Arghh..., why won't princess just take lunch money after all good food is sold in the school compound.

Ok, maybe i should remove the 'good', I grumbled as i approached the school compound. 

I was almost there and this time  there was no student around.

Time is just eleven o'clock so it isn't break yet.

Students won't be up and about.

Good morning sir, i said to mr kalu, the gateman.

Is my eyes seeing double, he said in his usual jesting manner.

No sir, i said trying my best to smile to a joke that wasn't funny.

  Jojo, i tink say u don go school, mr kalu continued.

  Will the man just open the gate  i was done with this discussion, with a lot of restraint i smiled and said 'i didn't gain admission last year sir and i have  brought food for my sister.

Eh ya sorry ehn, he said as he opened the gate for me.'no worry you go enter school next year'.

  Thank you sir, i said feeling relieved, there was really no big deal about it. I said a quick prayer before before making my way to my sisters class.

Good afternoon, i said to the female copper who was teaching in her class, i reluctantly added ma when she turned.

How may i help you, she asked and heads turned, senior joanne could be heard.