In Love with my Nemesis (Sonic x Reader)

How to feel

Reader's P.O.V.)

I force myself to sit up. Everything hurts. Sonic shifts from my movement and sleepily looks up at me. His facial expression quickly turns concerned as he gets up and places a hand on my forehead. "Still a fever... How do you feel?" "Pain... Everything hurts... Why are you bothering with me? I'm a villain, remember?" A coughing fit starts and Sonic gently rubs my back until it stops. "And I'm a hero, remember? It's kinda in the job description." "I-I thought you quit being a hero." "I did, but then someone needed my help and there was no one else who could. You should rest up. I'll go heat up some soup." He hesitates a moment, looking back at me, before leaving the room. I feel like I got hit by a truck. I ache all over but my heart aches the most. The locks on my heart have broken again and I'm desperately clinging to my invisible mask, trying to get a grip on my feelings. It's only breaking more and I feel myself crying again. It's like I'm an infant, crying but not truly understanding why. Deep down I know why but the answer eludes me. My feelings are strangers to me and I don't understand any of them. They speak a language I no longer understand. Logic is easy to comprehend and it's coherent in every way. Feelings on the other hand are irrational and incoherent. I can't understand them at all so I disconnect from them. Thus when I speak to another living thing, my emotions are mismatched. I get angry when I should be sad or I cry when I can't understand something. I'm mean to people when I shouldn't be and I act condescending when I meant to be sincere. Apologies come out like lies and I've pretty much grown to hate the idea of falling in love. To me, love is like a fairytale and I have not the patience for it. It's frustrating that my heart acts like it does around him. I understand the physical symptoms of falling in love but the emotions that go with it confuse me. I deleted feelings so I wouldn't get hurt but they come back full force and hurt me anyway. I grip the bed sheets and let out a shaky breath. My head and my heart don't get along. It's been so disconnected that there's miscommunication between them. "I don't understand... why it hurts..." I clutch my shirt where my heart is. "Don't understand why what hurts?" I jump at the sound of Sonic's voice. How long has he been standing there? "I brought you some classic tomato soup. I figured it'd be easy to stomach. Now, do you mind telling me what hurts? I want to help you and if you don't tell me what's wrong, I can't do my job." I sigh, I might as well tell him what's wrong. "My heart. It beats super fast when you're around and when you leave it hurts. I don't understand why I'm suffering from these symptoms." Sonic looks deep in thought. "Hmm... It's worse than I thought." "What?! What's wrong with me?!" Sonic lets out a small laugh at my panic. That cheeky blue rat! He's making fun of me! "I'm afraid you're suffering from lovesickness." "And how do I get rid of it." I scowl, which doesn't help my sore throat. "Well there's only one cure, you gotta tell someone about your feelings. Specifically the person you're in love with." "There's a problem with that." "What's the problem? You practically already said it." "I don't understand how to feel. And I'm scared I'll hurt you again..." I mumble the last bit. My face is hot and I'm not sure if it's embarrassment or my being sick. Maybe both. Ugh... I hate this.

(Sonic's P.O.V.)

She doesn't know how to feel? I guess that explains why she always seemed so cold and distant. She didn't know how else to act. I smile at her, which only deepens the frown on her pretty face. "Don't worry, (Y/N). I'll teach you." I kiss the top of her head and she grumbles. This may take a while.

*two weeks later*

(Sonic's P.O.V.)

Tails scolded me pretty bad for bringing (Y/N) home with me. I'm surprised he didn't notice sooner. Pixie's been helping me take care of (Y/N), who is still sick with what I assume is a technopath's version of a cold. I've also started teaching (Y/N) how to feel. I guess being a villain for so long you kinda get detached from that part of you. I actually got her to smile today, which is big progress compared to the grumbling she's been doing. She kinda reminds me of Shadow in some ways but at the same time, not so much. Still, it's slow progress and it might take me years before she finally gets in tune with her long-lost emotions. Fortunately, I don't mind waiting. Regardless of how long it takes, my once shredded heart put itself back together with stronger feelings for her. I hope my feelings help bring back hers. "Hey, how's the fever? Still achy?" "It's better... My heart's still being weird." I laugh a little. Every time I come in and ask about how she's feeling that's the first thing she complains about. "I'm sure you'll figure it out." I think I figured it out first though. Or maybe she did figure it out and she's in denial because we're supposed to be enemies. I had fun whenever I was around her and when I was a part-time villain I actually didn't mind being the bad guy. They say love makes people crazy and I'm starting to believe it. For (Y/N), I wouldn't mind going a little crazy.