Irreconcilable Life (BL#2) (Bitches Series #2)

Kabanata 15

(HAZELLE❤)

Imagine feeling nervous and seeing in the front of you more nervous than you are...

You gotta be like, what to react from this circumstance?

Laugh while you're hands are currently shaking? The fuck.

It is a nerve-wracking moment and inevitable at the same time.

Like, i'm in it right now, so i should go  give it a shot, right?

I sighed heavily, placing my right hand to her left shoulder unconciously, i planted a smack on the corner of her lips.

Fucking crowd, of course, they were so happy i did this whole damn thing.

But as my attention took by mariah, i could say she's not satisfied at all.

"Ba't gano'n lang! How 'bout the crowd? Everyone wants more 'di ba?!" my turn to roll my eyes, this is way too much!

Maybe every girl had this mood swings, one thing pushed me to be this kj as of now.

I stole the microphone from the mother, didn't ought to mind her furious glances.

"I respect the bride, and y'all know what we had, it's like...,"

Moment of silence surrounded this room once again.

"I don't wanna ruin her day, it is her da--"

"Last day of being a single!" the gossip girl is here, stacy used to call her that one.

She's one of our biggest fan since highschool and for sure she would still insist us, which is in some reason didn't exists as of now.

"Kiss her! Lick her! Bite her!" she shouted as a response.

Fuck.

"LOUDER HICKIES!" she grinned devilishly as the crowd immediately followed.

Fuck.

"Want a demo?" she grabbed someone on the side of her as they make out.

Why am i here in the first place? This is a trap! Oh h-holy jeez!

"Oh c'mon mamï amrielle!" she winked at the girl before rolling her eyes when i get speechless.

"Ok, ok!" i frustratedly shouted.

"You guys should shut that fuck up first," i sighed heavily, feeling my  heart playing its own marathon.

I faced the girl who's currently sitting and busy playing with her hands, intentionally diverting her attention from the crazy crowd down there.

"I-i'm--" before i could possibly finish my effin' statement, i felt her cold yet sweet lips landed against mine.

I closed my eyes, feeling my body getting weakened.

Didn't hearing any voices from people which surrounds us right now.

I don't know what to feel when she immediately pulls out.

"It's ok, it's nothing," she smirks as she winks at the crowd.

I kept away my stares from where she's at as I immediately made my way downstairs.

I didn't mind the noise from the crowd as i felt my whole-self's get numb.

Why the hell i feel this way?

This is what i chose, and even if it is not what i wanted, world wouldn't give a damn about me and my fucking feelings in this irreconcilable life.

Time passed by abruptly, one blinked of an eye, no matter how repentance, regret and guilt from the past that i'm still feeling right now, it's possible that it doesn't matter to her and that we didn't feel the same, people change.

"My baby amrielle, it's your turn to shine na!" mariah gives me an apologetic smile and a thumbs up.

Is it that obvious from my appearance?

Walking upto the stage once again, i headed where did the instrument piano located from.

I cleared my throat before speaking on the mic. in its standee.

"The bitches requested for a song and yah, it's a must to do this fucking stuff," the crowd laughed as i smirked.

"I ended up choosing a song from the album of the year for me which is definitely, MAMA'S BOY from the band LANY," the crowd cheered, oh whatta good warm up, maybe some of them knew the album.

"The song entitled what i wish just one person would say to me," i cleared my throat once again as i distant my face from the mic., focusing my head down to the piano.

I made an intro using it, smooth as i wanted it to be.

I lean in the mic. once again as I started the song afterwards.

We were young, we fell in love
And our hearts were set aflame
I don't know what life is like
If I'm not next to your name

I can't help but to close my eyes and to reminisce each things we've been done together.

Everything I've ever wanted
Everything I need
But the space inside your heart
Is gonna need more than me

I'm here to stay, I'll find a way, I know it hurts
There's no one else, I'll go through hell to make it work

Look at you go
The world is yours, I'll hold it down at home
Even though I hate to be alone
I know this is what you gotta do

As i opened my eyes, it has its own mind causing it to direct on glancing at her.

I'm happy, I'm happy for you

Now and then I find myself
Gettin' lost without you here
Been gone for a couple days
Tell me why it feels like years

They say eyes don't lie, and i knew her so well.

Everything I've ever wanted
Everything I need
I'm gonna be strong for you
But I wish you'd never leave

Those eyes, it is lowkey hurting.

I'm here to stay, I'll find a way, I know it hurts
There's no one else, I'll go through hell to make it work

Look at you go
The world is yours, I'll hold it down at home
Even though I hate to be alone
I know this is what you gotta do
I'm happy, I'm happy for you

Look at you go
The world is yours, I'll hold it down at home
Even though I hate to be alone
I know this is what you gotta do
I'm happy, I'm happy for you

So, hurry back and let me hold you tight
Even if it's only for the night
There is nothin' that I wouldn't do
I'm happy, I'm happy for you

*round of applause

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(Maraming salamat po sa pagbabasa kahit matagal akong nawalaaa! I'm gonna update na rin po yung main book ko so di ko sure kung kailan uli ud rito. Again, thank you for reading and god bless y'all, ily!)