Dear friends and family,
It’s with a heavy heart that I write you this note, knowing the amount of pain it is going to cause you.
Dave, I want you to know that I love you dearly and will always love you. If I am given the opportunity to live again I will still choose you as my friend and my family will still be my place of happiness.
But unfortunately, I know that there is not going to be any such opportunity.
Dave, I didn’t want to do this, but I was compelled by circumstances beyond my control to take the plunge.
I tried my best to pull through, but my best was not good enough. I battled alone for about 15 years, now until my strength failed me. you could not decipher what I was going through and maybe I should not blame you for that.
My one and only friend Vincenzo came very close to understanding what I was passing through but it was too much for her mind to comprehend.
Gerri, I know that you loved me and did everything you could to prove that to me but I was not feeling loved.
You provided for me more than I even wanted, took me to places that most of my mates have not even heard of, yet despite all these, my heart was longing for love.
I needed someone who would love me for who I was. I needed someone who could reach the depth of my soul and feel the vacuum there.
And I was alone all the while, despite the fact that we laughed together and had gist as a family.
Armand, I loved you like a father but you treated me like I was just a Foster kid.
Gerri: You always compared me to Jen. Nothing I even did could compare to what she did. I tried so hard to please you but nothing worked
Dave:
I loved you. You showed me that I could always count on you to support me and help me in my time of need
Vincenzo
You showed me confidence and tried to teach me not to care what people thought. And you will always be my friend.
Joel
I could rely on you for a hug or even just a random pray that made me feel better. And I'm very grateful for you
Justice
I don't know you very well but what I do know is that you accepted me from the very beginning. Thank you
MJ
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to get to know you. I will always be grateful for you
Allan
I'm sorry Allan I planned to stay with you forever but I can't take the pain of not being good enough but I also can't deal with Mj hating me. I love you. Please don't grieve too long you deserve to be happy.
