The Stripper Chronicles 2: Indiscretions (Excerpt )

Chapter 15

Well, I tried to tell the truth. But I couldn't form the words. I tried to tell Jason but he just brushed me off.
If I told the Ericsson's that would cost me my job and my credibility.
So I went along with it, but I got this crazy heartburn and hiccups in the middle of the night.
I went to the clinic. For the first time I thought about this kid.
"You want to hear the baby's heartbeat, Ms. Taylor?" asked the doctor.
Erica came in. " Yes, we getting ready to hear the heartbeat!" she exclaimed excited.
"You're six weeks..." She said as she press the cold fetal scope under my belly.
"Sounds good and strong..." she replied. When I heard the gentle Swish, Swish of the baby's heartbeat something came over me.
Erica was so excited. "In a month, we can see if it's a boy or girl!" She exclaimed.
The next day, I came clean to Jonathan. He just looked at me. Pity?
"I will pay it all back." I promised. I told him that I was in fact pregnant. " Constance, you are a great partner and since you are responsible for some of our business...I am not gonna be too hard when I saw Fifty Percent of your commission and pay." He replied. I agreed. " But you are suspended and you have the task of apologizing and making things right with Angela."
Later at Janice's house I told her what I had did. She smiled.
"That's a start, Connie...I hope Angela is okay with it...because you cost her of her livelihood."
I agreed. " And have you talk to the Stripper?" She asked. I nod in the positive.
"Well..." she interjected. I shrugged.
" I don't know...Janice...I just can't call off my wedding. Jason will not marry me and at this moment I have no where to go..." I explained. Janice sighed. " You shouldn't have given up your apartment in the first place. You always did that, Con....you let a man dictate your life."
"Just because you found something good don't knock me... your marriage isn't all that great.." I shot back at her angrily.
"It's not and I can admit it but you are sinking deep in this shit. I fear for that baby. I fear that if Jason asked you to get an abortion...you would. You and Jason don't have love. The two of you are codependent. He with you because you are light skinned and you was successful. And you with his money. Keyke right you are a gold digger and he wants you as a trophy,at least mine get on my nerves, but he ain't trying to stifle me into being something that I am not. And if you was so in love with Jason why did you cheat on him with the Stripper? And that guy want to do right by the child you carrying but you worried about your lifestyle."
"Yes, baby or no baby I worked hard to get where I am...Jay, damn you!" I exclaimed.
There was angry silence.
"And I am not going or participating in that disaster of a wedding!" she yelled.
I decided to drive over to Relic. He opened the door and looked at me smugly. Today is not my day.
" If you came for sex...I am not with it right now." He replied. " I know Bitches like you...I dealt with them they want they nice cushy houses and drive their shiny cars and keep their rich ass husbands. I am good enough to fuck and impregnate you...."
I tried to tell him no. I reached for him but he pushed me away. "Did he tell you to get rid of the child or he's gonna let you keep it?" I had no words.
" Oh, you still on that shit!" He exclaimed.
"Fuck you! Can you even take care of a child? Your little deejaying Vampire doesn't cut it. And what if your child finds out you take your clothes off or use your body for money then what?"l exclaimed.
He looked at me. "You're not even mother material.." he snarled at me. His face was hateful. Smack! I was shocked when I realized the I slapped his face. He look as if he was gonna grab, but he gave me to angry mixed with passion look. He grabbed my wrist and scoffed the ring on my finger.
" This is the only thing you are worth to that man!" He retorted.
I found myself a park bench at a preschool playground crying and heaving. I was foolish.
A little girl with a big pink bow and wearing a tutu and leggings and a shirt saying 'Sugar and Spice came over with a big lollipop.
Concern crossed her babyish face.
"What's wrong?" she asked in her little voice.
I tried to smile and wipe my face with a tissue I retrieved in my purse.
" I am good just sad." I answered.
"Did your cat died?" she asked sweet child like concern on her face. It was funny and cute. I laughed.
"No......" I answered. A woman with pink braids and lounge pants with SpongeBob Squarepants characters printed on her was coming toward us.
"Dasia!" the woman called. "Leave her alone!"
I smiled and said she did not worry me at all.

I tried to get into the wedding. I didn't realize I was getting bigger so fast.
Jason looked at me and said, "Connie, you can't get to fat then I won't marry you."
I had to go to a seamstress to let my dress out more.
"Connie..." my mother exclaimed one day. "Are you pregnant?" I told her no.
"Don't be silly." I answered. "I had two kids and I know that glow when I see it." She replied. Aunt Pat was there backing her up with an, "Hmmmmmmm..."
I had three more days till the wedding. Jason was out late getting drunk. Sometimes I was left to my thoughts. I had to make it right with Angela.
I found the address on my Contacts. I came by her house. She was happy to see me.
"You want something to drink?" she offered. She looked like she was planting a bush or something. I complimented her. " I plan on going into business with my husband." I was happy for her.
"I need your forgiveness, Angela." I told her. I explained to her what happened and I apologized for it.
"And you let me stand there and took the fall?"she asked. "If you weren't pregnant I slug you one..."
I was about to open my mouth to ask.  "We all guessed it. You being sick and you have the glow." She sighed. "Well, Connie I did what I did and I enjoyed it but I found that I enjoy my family too. Me and my husband are going into business together. You see Ms Taylor, one door close. God opened another and I thank him. So I want you and your child to be blessed."