Mission Failed

Chapter 6

Moon

"What happened? " bungad na tanong sa akin ni Ally pagkpasok ko sa kotse niya.

My whole system is still shaking. Mabilis pa rin ang paghinga ko dahil sa nalaman. Magbe I should go to a peaceful place or somewhere basta malayo muna rito.

"Convenience store muna tayo, Ally. I need you to buy me some foods and drinks muna please?"
I said in a hopeful tone. Kailangan kong makaalis muna rito.

Ally nodded. "Sure." she said and starting the car's engine.

Habang nag dadrive papuntang convenience store I kept my eyes busy watching the road at night.

I just still can't process everything. Parang malabo kahit totoo. Parang ang impossible kahit possible naman talaga.

Of all people.

"Hintayin mo ako?" Ally ask me while removing her seatbelt.

"Yep, bilisan mo lang samahan mo ako sa park." tumango lang siya at saka bumaba ng kotse.

I sigh.

This is really happening.
I need to protect someone.
Someone who almost throw me to jail.

This is ridiculous.

No in fucking way that I will protect him.

But this is my job.

I need to.

Even it will annoy the shit out of me at the end of the day, job is still a job. Obligation is still an obligation.

Naramdaman ko ang pagbukas sara ng pinto ng kotse.

"Here." Ally said handing me the foods and drinks I told her to buy for me.

My eyes is still watching the road while Ally is drving. Tahimik lang siya but I know that she's starting to think already why the fuck I'm panicking earlier. But I really appreciate her for not asking me what just happened earlier before niya akong sunduin.

At the middle of the ride she ask me.

"You sure you don't want to go home yet?"

"Yep." she nodded.

Boredom got on me and later on I'm already typing a tweet.

@LielDv

I need to think.

@LielDv

But really.

@LielDv

This is ridiculous.

Hindi nagtagal ay nakarating kami sa park. Bumaba kami at nagsimulang maglakad.

"Sure kang sasamahan mo ako Ly?"

"Yep and besides wala rin naman akong ginagawa sa bahay you know it's kinda boring."

"May tanong ako Ally." I said thinking she might give me some scenarios and possibilities before doing this.

"Yes, sure."

"Anong gagawin mo kung ang next mission mo is protektahan yung taong muntik ng sirain yung buhay mo?" I said while kicking the stones.

"Hm siguro sasabihin ko sa boss ko na ibahin yung mission? Imbes na protektahan ako nalang yung mananakit or papatay don sa taong muntik ng sumira ng buhay ko."

I laughed at her answers.

"You're crazy." and she laughed too.

"I'm just kidding, Liel." she said still laughing.

"So ano nga?"

"Syempre gagawin ko pa rin." she said in a more serious tone now.

We saw a bench and sat there.

"Bakit?"

"You know what Liel pride is a soap. Hindi pwedeng pride lang palagi I mean yes, muntik na masira buhay ko or so whatever dahil sa tao na yun but hey we both know na kaya ka binigyan ng mission para gawin yon. Para tumulong lalo na kung may iba pang taong madadamay pag hindi mo ginawa. Mission is still a mission. You're doing it with a purpose. And besides alam mo naman yung tama at mali when it comes sa giving ng mission sayo and kung wala namang masama sa mission na binigay sayo why bother if you'll going to do it not?"

That's it.

She got it.

Nakita kong kumakain siya ng pagkaing binili namin kanina bago pumunta rito.

"Well, kaya ako nagpasama sayo dito para mag isip." I said as I open a bottle of water.

"Walang masama mag isip Liel pero ang masama ay yung nag iisip ka nga pero sarili mo lang iniisip mo. Hindi mo iniisip yung possibilities na pwedeng mangyari pag ginawa mo tong bagay na to or hindi."

I nodded.

Siguro kaya talaga ako nagdadalawang isip kasi yung taong muntik ng maglagay sa akin sa kulungan yung kailangan kong tulungan.

Helping others is not bad and hindi kailangang magdalawang isip kung tutulong ka pero kung yung taong hindi mo inaakalang mangangailangan ng tulong mo ay siyang muntik ng magpahamak sayo tutulungan mo pa rin ba?

Will you still help him?

Pero Ally is right wala namang masama sa pinapagawa sa akin.

Hindi ko lang talaga matanggap na siya yung tutulungan ko.

And I'm not in the right place para magsabi kung deserve ba siyang tulungan o hindi dahil kung hindi ko siya tutulungan marami pang madadamay.

Ayokong maguilty sa bagay na sa simula pa lang ay alam ko na kung ano yung dapat kong ginawa.

Pero that's life.

Kung sino pa yung taong ayaw mo siya pa yung taong walang kaalam alam na lumalapit na pala siya sayo.

Hindi siya lumapit sayo dahil gusto ka niya. Lumapit siya sayo para tulungan siya.

Is it really hard to help the person you hate?

Kasi kung ako ang tatanungin sobrang hirap pero may mga madadamay kung hindi ko to tatanggapin.

Tumingala ako at tumingin sa madalim na langit. The moon gets its light from the sun. At dahil sa liwanag ng buwan nagiging maliwanag ang langit kahit gabi na.

Sometimes moon is the light for the dark places and forest. That's how the moon helps us in the entire night.

Kahit madilim na ang isip natin dahil sa hatred its funny how our heart still manage to be soft that even our mind can't resist its softness kaya nagagawa pa rin natin tulungan yung taong ayaw natin tulungan.

Na kahit na labag sa loob natin, at the end of the day you will find yourself helping the person you don't want to help.

Maybe yes. Sa una we have the doubt kung tutulungan ba natin yung taong kinaiinisan o sa taong galit tayo pero tinutulungan pa rin natin sila.

Nabigla lang siguro ako kaya nagreact ako ng ganito pero they can't blame me tho muntik na akong malagay sa kulungan ng dahil sa tao na yon.

And kinailangan kong kausapin si Ally. Kailangan ko ng second opinion dahil ayokong nagdedecide ng agad agad.

I sighed.

"Thanks for the opinion Ally." I said while drinking my water.

"No problem I always got your back." she said with a small smile.

I shrug.

"Let's go home na."