𝔾𝕖𝕠𝕣𝕘𝕖𝕟𝕠𝕥𝕗𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕕 𝕩 ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣 <𝟛

part 12

quick note before we start,,
firstly,  THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 2 AND 3 THOUSAND READS<3
it really is unreal to me. that number is INSANE. i love you all. :,)
and secondly, i wrote the last chapter on a bad night, kinda considering deleting it bc when i read it over it was rlly triggering and now i feel insensitive. let me know what you guys think, bc i really have no clue. just want everyone to enjoy the story🙃

*your pov*

waking for the second time today, i rubbed my eyes and hesitantly opened them.  they felt really puffy.  i laid in bed for a few minutes while adjusting to the light, and trying to decide whether to get up or not.

i turned my attention towards the bedroom door as i heard it creak open.

"oh hey, you're finally awake!" george said with a warming smile.

"good morning," i gave him a half smile and rubbed my temples. "i have a killer headache."

"oh no," he had a worried expression on his face. "do you want an aspirin or something? a tea? breakfast?"

"no don't worry i'm sure it'll go away."

"okay, well if you need anything just ask," he put a hand on my shoulder and lightly made circles around it with his thumb.

"did sapnap and dream die? it's too quiet."

"nope, they went out for the day. just us at home. i think they said they'll be back at around 10 tonight."

"oh, okay. what time is it?" i didn't really want to know, because i already felt like it was late in the day.

"it's 2 right now."

"oh my god, i was asleep for that long?"

"it's fine, you looked really tired this morning. and upset. do you want to talk about it?"

i hesitated.

"um- i do and i don't. it's a lot." i really wanted to tell someone, but when i've tried to previously, i was told i was overreacting.

"i'm willing to listen if you're comfortable talking to me about it. even if i can't give any advice, i'll always be here to listen."

i pulled him into the bed and sat across from him. i let out all my bottled up emotions from the past six years. i told him everything. i told him about the guilt, the pain, all the things i missed out on. everything. i felt so guilty to put all of this weight on to someone else's back. but i couldn't help it. i needed to get everything out.

he looked at me in disbelief. i could tell he didn't know what to say. i probably wouldn't know what to say either. he just pulled me into a hug.

"you don't deserve that. nobody deserves that. i'm so sorry y/n." i teared up at his words. "it's okay y/n. let it out."

"it's just that i haven't been in this headspace for so long."

george hugged me tighter and we stayed like that for a while. he gently pulled away and wiped my tears.

"here," he said. "i'll go run you a bath. you can watch a movie on my laptop while you're in there, and when you're done, we can do whatever you'd like. my treat. i'll help you through this."