sacrifices pt.2

summer break

i walked out of my dorm after packing everything. i didn't go to say goodbye to anyone, i just got on the train. i sat in my own carriage. all the memories of draco and i sitting in this exact carriage flew into my mind. again.
i tried to push them out, humming a made up song. i know harry said i shouldn't see draco, but i had to. i took my journal out of my backpack and grabbed the quill that was in my pocket. i decided i'd write back to draco.
'dear draco malfoy,
i would love to see you tomorrow, but someone's told me i should stay away from you. i know why, so if that's why you wanted to see me tomorrow, then save it. i miss you and i just want to say what you did was really brave, but really wrong. i'm sure you had no choice, but just know i may never forgive you..
please write back if you'd still like me to meet you at hogsmeade at noon.
farewell,
y/n y/l/n.'
that came out a bit harsh, but i needed to get it off my chest. i put a spell on my letter to bring it to the malfoy manor, since i haven't got an owl. i opened the window inside my carriage and let go of the piece of parchment. it fluttered in the wind, heading to the mansion.

dracos pov
i don't know if y/n got my letter or not. she hasn't responded. maybe she found out what i am.. what if potter told her. before i could step out of my room, i heard gentle knocking on my window. i noticed a letter outside of the green stained glass. i opened up the window and grabbed the parchment. i ripped open the envelope and read aloud, "dear draco malfoy,
i would love to see you tomorrow, but someone's told me to stay away from you. i know why, so if that's why you wanted to see me tomorrow, then save it. i miss you and just wanted to say that what you did was brave, but really wrong. i'm sure you had no choice, but just know i may never forgive you..
please write back if you'd still like me to meet you at hogsmeade tomorrow at noon.
farewell,
y/n y/l/n."
wow. fucking potter. he told her. who else would? how did he even know?
of course i still wanted to meet her. oh god, she's probably terrified of me. she probably thinks i'm going to hurt her. who am i? what have i turned into?

y/n's pov
i sat there for a while, wondering if draco read my letter. the hogwarts express came to a stop, causing me to lose my train of thought. "alright! everyone off! have a great summer and see you next year! and we are proud of our graduates! much love!" the train conductor announced. i grabbed my bags and stumbled out of my carriage. i noticed the golden trio trying to get my attention, but i ran off of the train instead. i couldn't talk to them, not knowing that i'm meeting a death eater tomorrow.

dracos pov
i've been freaking out for a few hours now. i haven't wrote back to y/n because i'm afraid. but i've been brainstorming a few ideas.
finally i grabbed a piece of paper and wrote:
'dear y/n,
i have no idea what you're talking about? i hope you will explain tomorrow. i would still like to meet you at hogsmeade, how about 11:30? sounds good?
love,
draco.'
i folded it up and placed a ribbon around it. i called over my owl, and off it went, bringing my letter to poor y/n.

y/n's pov
i noticed my father waiting for me at the station, "well hello, y/n/n!" he shouted. i giggled. i loved my dad so much. he was probably the most important person in my life. "hi dad!" i shouted back as i ran to him. he gave me a goofy smile, reminding me of my childhood. he would always make funny faces to make me laugh. ever since my mother's death, i haven't really laughed at his jokes. but for some reason, i finally felt happy enough.