hurricane || k.sw || p.jh [ COMPLETED ]

f o r t y - s e v e n

" Hey you " I timidly said entering the living room.

" Hey. "

" How are you ? "

" It hurts a bit, but I know him, he restrained himself not to hurt me " his eyes were wet.

     I can't believe I managed to destroy a friendship of years all by myself.

" Look, I'm sorry, I really wanted this, you, us " I stammered.

" I know " his eyes were empty.

" And I still do... so if you want to pick it up where we started... not today of course " I rushed to precise " but... I really like you. "

" You're really not making this easy for me you know that ? " he finally looked at me, half a smile on his face.

     His hair was messy, his shirt was still opened and bloodstains had dried on his pants.

     He hugged me tightly.

" We can't do this, Hyerim. I can't " he admitted.

" Why not ? " I felt tears coming up to my eyes.

     He was telling me all of this had happened for nothing ? All this self-torture in my brain to pick one, all this blood shed to win me over and he was telling me it was all for nothing ?

" I really like you too " he started stroking my hair. " I just... Haven't you seen the way Sunwoo behaves with you ? I can tell you, he's never been like that with anyone else before, I just can't compete. "

" But you're perfect " I started crying.

" Stop saying that, it's not true. Fuck, this is so hard... "

     He lift up my chin and our lips met again.

" Promise me one thing " Jihoon stopped.

" What ? " I asked.

" This is a goodbye to our love, not our friendship. "

" I promise. "

And after one last kiss, I rested my head on his shoulder as he held my hand in silent.

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song recommendation : abracadabra - yooa