Behind Closed Doors

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I had woken up at four am after taking three sleeping pills. Which didn't even put me to sleep right away. I brushed my teeth and washed my face listening to the thunderstorm outside of my window. I just wanted to stay in today, I wasn't leaving at all from this house.

It's not even an home anymore since Mira is gone. I walked into the kitchen in the dark looking through the fridge. I pulled out a piece of colby jack cheese and just stood there shoving it in my mouth.

I felt something bump my leg, I looked down and it was Nala tiny little self.

"The fuck are you still here for?" I snapped and she just waited for me to give her a piece of cheese. "Fucking fine."

I tossed it down to her, but she just followed me as I walked away from her. She started whimpering to go outside. So, I let her out the front door but she just stood there looking up at me.

"The fuck do you want?" I asked her.

"She just want you to pick her up" Jade said behind me.

I guess she didn't leave earlier, I picked up Nala and she just started licking my hands and fingers.

"She missed her mother."

I never been in a position in my life where I never knew what to say to a women.

"She ate, had her water and she has been up crying up and downstairs for you for two hours. Your blood was all over her so, I gave her a little bath" she said turning away so, I followed her into the livingroom.

"Thank you" I said and seen that Jade had blanket and pillows on one of my couches. I guess I had woken them up. "Sorry if I woke you up" I said.

"You didn't I've been up sitting here with Nala" she said folding the blankets.

"I'm so..." she started to shake her head.

"Don't okay, just don't."

Okay, Ocean just try to be Ocean. Just breath and just think about what to say. I thought to myself, because I can't lose Jade.

"You don't have to sleep on the couch. There are plenty of rooms with beds" I said.

"Yes Queen I do know that."

"Ocean" I replied.

"What?" She said.

"Just call me Ocean" I told her.