𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐎𝐑

9 ❘ 𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐫 𝐁𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠

Her lips, her lips,
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her everyday

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Just the way you are/Bruno Mars

"Small flutters in their heart here and there, few skipped beats and few shy smiles amd it seemed like they were falling in love. "

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

You know the feeling of tearing open an old wound, a wound that has been stitched on over the years with care it takes just a little effort to tear open, and creates a huge mess, it gets infected and nasty to even treat, and you feel like cutting the part out altogether.

That's what it felt like but in my case, I couldn't exactly cut my heart out and get rid of it altogether. It tore open in haste and left me feeling broken yet again, and I hated that he still had that power over me. I hated it.

I laid still, my body half floated in the bathtub as tears ran down my face, I needed the bath, even though my heart was breaking every second, my body still needed to go on and with the wounds from the day before needed dressing, but the mere will to heal had vanished there for a while for me. I felt lost again, I felt like the teenage girl who couldn't handle her emotions again, so I had to wash away those stupid feelings.

I released a long sigh as I pushed away from the tears and got up from the bathtub slowly, the pain was still there, but it was better than yesterday. Taeyong's dressing and medicines must have helped.

I stared ahead as the reflection stared right back at me as if judging me for crying, for feeling broken and I couldn't blame the girl staring back. My eyes slowly ran down my face to my neck where the bruise was on as I applied for the medicine, dragging my finger over the collarbone, a small mark from high school was still there, to the valley between my breast, the brownish freckles littered were something I was once insecure about but over the years I have learned to love those, they added certain originality in my features, to the stretch marks on my waist because of the weight gained I did during my college days, they elegantly hugged my now lean figure. I applied the medicine to the other bruises leaving the one on my waist.