starstruck.

chapter 10: where to start

Louis pov:

No one knew where to start and no one knew where he went. "Do you think he went back to London?" Niall asked. I shook my head "That's too obvious. He wouldn't go to the first place he knew we'd think of." I reminded them. We were all quiet and out of ideas. "This is all my fault," Niall said as he stood up and began pacing. "No it's not Niall, you were happy. He made his choices and the guilt caught up with him. I don't know why he would run away but it isn't your fault." Zayn told him. Noelle stood up and grabbed his hand. He stopped pacing and looked at her. She put her hand to his cheek and smiled at him. "Hey, it's okay. It's not your fault and we will find him." He smiled and return and nodded. He sighed "We need a plan." He said to us. "What kind of plan? We don't even know where to start." Liam said. Niall shrugged "I don't know." He answered. "I'll go call the management," Zayn said as he stood up and went into the other room. "I'll go too for back up because we know they won't be happy when they find out," Liam replied as he followed Zayn out. Niall and Noelle sat back down on the couch. I put my head in my hands. Finding Harry shouldn't be hard. We should be able to figure him out. He was our best friend, we are supposed to know him the best. "Louis?" Niall said breaking my train of thought. I looked up. "Huh?" He stood up and sat in the chair beside me where Liam had been sitting prior. "Are you okay?" I leaned back in my chair. "Not really Niall," I answered honestly. "I don't know what to do. I don't like the thought of him being somewhere out in the world on his own." I told him. Noelle came and sat in the chair next to Niall. "Louis, It's not your fault. None of us knew he'd runoff." I nodded. "I know," I said to them as I stood up and began pacing and trying to think. I ended up overthinking. I was the closest to Harry, I should've checked on him during all of this. I should know where he is, where would he go?

A few minutes later, Liam came back into the living room. "They're not happy, which isn't surprising." He told us. "What are they going to do?" Noelle asked. Liam sat down on the couch. "They're going to find out how to track his phone to find him and also send people looking in London, and other places they think he'd go." I shook my head. "They're not going to find him," I replied. "Louis, try to think positive," Noelle said to me. I turned to face her. "It's really hard to right now Noelle! He could literally be anywhere in the fucking world!" I yelled. I was frustrated and upset. "We are the ones who have to find him, not the management," I told them. Niall nodded "Okay yeah, so what places would Harry go?" Niall asked. "He loves a lot of places, he loved literally every country, state, and city we've toured to so that gives us too many options," Zayn answered as he entered the room. "Maybe he doesn't want to be found," Liam stated. Noelle rolled her eyes at him "Obviously, it's not like he left us some kind of clue." Then I got an idea. "Oh my god, clues!" I shouted. They were all confused. "What are you talking about Lou?" Zayn asked me. I ran out of the room to the kitchen and grabbed Harry's note from the counter. I re-read it as I reentered the room. "He may have left us a hint or clue in the note," I told them. Niall stood up and came behind me and read from over my shoulder. "But we didn't notice anything the first time." He reminded me. "Because we were distracted Niall" I answered. "Do you see anything?" Liam asked us. Niall shook his head but I nodded and smiled. I stood up and read aloud.
"We can make ourselves miserable or we can make ourselves strong. The amount of effort is the same." I read the quote to them but they all had a look of confusion written across their faces. "What does that even mean?" Noelle asked. "It's a quote Harry told me," I answered. I looked over at the three boys. "On our bonding trip after the Where we are tour. I had that fight with Lottie and I was upset at myself the whole trip because I felt bad. Harry said that to me and helped me talk to her." Liam nodded. "I remember that trip, we were in-" I cut him off "Wyoming," I replied.

"Do you think he went there?" Niall asked. I shrugged. "That's the only thing that makes sense. Why else would he end his letter in a quote, especially one he knew I'd remember." I answered him. "Why would he go to Wyoming of all places? I forgot that state even existed because literally no one ever goes there." Noelle stated. "Which is the exact reason he'd be there," I told her. Her phone started to ring, she answered it. "Hello? Anna? Oh, everything is okay. I'm still here. Something happened but I'm okay. W- What do you mean you already knew? I- okay I'll be there soon." She hung up. "It was Anna, somehow the fandom already knows about Harry's disappearance." She told the group. I sighed and sat down. "Of course they do, the directioners know and find out about everything," Liam replied and laughed. Noelle stood up "I have to go but keep me updated. I um- I have to go home in two days so I really hope he is found before then." I nodded and waved to her. Niall stood up with her. "Bye, I'll call you later." She said to him as she hugged him and then kissed him quickly before exiting through the door.
I walked out of the living room and went into the bedroom. I called Harry but I got no answer so I decided to text him.

L: "We can make ourselves miserable or we can make ourselves strong."

I waited 5 minutes and then I eventually saw the three loading dots appear on my phone screen.

H: "The amount of effort is the same."
L: Harry?
H: Hi Lou.
L: Please tell me you are okay?
H: I am.
L: We know where you are, well I think we do. You left the quote as a clue didn't you?
H: I knew you'd figure it out.
L: Can you please come back? We love you and no one is mad at you.
H: I don't know Lou.
L: Hazza please, I need you. We all need you
H: What about Niall?
L: He forgives you and keeps blaming himself for you leaving
H: It's not his fault
L: I told him that
H: It's mine
L: Harry, No it's not. You need to stop blaming yourself.
H: I'm sorry.

L: Don't apologize, just come home Harry
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L: Harry? Please answer.
L: We're all worried. I am scared, Harry. I don't like not knowing if you are okay. and I'm sorry for not asking you if you were okay and for making you feel like you couldn't talk to me.
H: Don't be scared, Louis. I'm okay, It's okay.
L: I love you H, please come home.
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Niall entered the bedroom and knocking on the door. I was startled by the knock and quickly turned around and shoved my phone in my pocket. "H- Hey, Come in," I said. He came in and sat on the bed. "Are you okay, Lou?" He asked. I sat next to him and stared out at the wall in front of me. "I'm don't know. I don't like him not being here." Niall nodded. "Me too. I'm sorry I drove him away." He said to me and looked down. I turned to him "Hey, It's not your fault at all so you have no reason to apologize. He just- I don't know why he would run, but it wasn't because of you." I told Niall.
He nodded. "We will find him though, Lou." He looked at me as I looked back at the wall. "But what if he doesn't want to come back, what if he doesn't want to come home?" I asked knowing that is probably the truth. Niall sighed. "I don't think would ever not want to come back, just give him time. He will want to come back soon." I nodded. I hoped he was right.