If happiness was with you

Chapter 3:I love you?

Amanda
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Jax and I pull up to Rue de Jean. A fancy french restaurant in Georgia. Oh my god!! Is he going to do what I think he is?! We have been dating for six years now and we are finally moving up in our relationship! He has been hinting about something big that will happen for the last few now. Maybe today is the big day he will finally say, "I love you"! This is a big step for our relationship. Jax looks at me and smiles, "Lets go in babe, we have reservations here." Ahhhh, oh my god I can't stop myself from smiling like a crazy person. "Lead the way babe", I say trying to control the huge grin on my face.

We make our way to the front desk where the host took us to my table. It is nicely made with a single candle lighten with rose pedals beautifully placed on the table. Talk about romantic! Jax takes my hand and leads me to my seat. Like a gentleman he pulls the seat out for me and and gestures me to take my seat. He then took his seat across from me, and he takes my hand into his. "You look beautiful tonight Amanda", he says as his thumb strokes the back of my hand. Giggling I tell him, "Well you don't look so bad either."

We both stare at each others eyes and there is a twinkle in them. I think he is about to say the three magic words. "Amanda there is something I have to tell you". Oh my god, its happening! We are going to take the next steps in our relationship!! But I have to keep my cool. "Yes Jax? What is it that you want to tell me?" My heart is starting to race in my chest as Jax takes a deep breath and says, "I want to move forward in our relationship." Oh my god yes! This is it!! This is where Jax will say the magic words. "I think its time for us to have sex", but before I can react to what he said I embarrassing said, "I love you too Jax---- wait what?!"

"Ummm, Amanda.....did you just say you love me?" Jax asks confusingly. God I feel so embarrassed. My cheeks are all red and I want to curl up in a ball at the corner of the room. But I also feel.....angry. What the hell did he say?! "What did you just say to me Jax?!" I snared at him. " Did you just ask me to sleep with you?!" Jax takes the napkin that he is holding in his hand and tosses it on the plate. "Why are you whining Amanda? What did you expect me to say to you?" Rage started to fill me up. What I expect him to say to me?! Is he serious?! "What I expected you to say to me was that you love me! We have been dating each other for six years now and you tell me that you want to have sex with me?!" This is not what I had planned for this evening.

"I'm really confused Jax. You brought me to a really nice restaurant, we are dressed very nicely. It's a candle light dinner and you said you wanted to move out relationship forward", I said in an exhausting voice. Jax didn't waste any time before he said, "when I meant by moving forward in our relationship, I meant our sexual part in our relationship." The audacity he has to say this in my face. But I didn't show any anger . Mama told me that it isn't proper for a young lady to overreact. I have to behave and act like a mature lady. So in a calm voice I say, "Why are you so concerned about sex? A relationship doesn't always revolve around sex!"

Jax takes another deep breathe and he then says something that angered me a lot, "Mandy, we have be dating since the seventh grade and not once we had sex. A man has his needs Amanda!" That was the last straw! Before I knew it I took my glass cup that was already filled with water and threw it at Jax. Not looking back I stormed out of the restaurant ignoring Jax calling me back to our table. I am done with that asshole.

I made my way to the front of the restaurant and realized that I don't have a ride home. I don't want to spend my last day all alone. I reach in to my purse and pull out my phone. I dialed a number and waited anxiously for them to answer.

"Hello?" Says the person on the other side of the call. "Hey Sam its Amanda. I have some free time right now and I was wondering if you wanted to hang out?", I say I'm a hopeful voice. "Oh my god, Amanda! I thought you were busy with Jax today?" Sam says confusingly. "Well our plans got cut short. I don't even want to talk about him right now." I can hear Sam sighing in disbelief.

"What did he do this time Amanda?" I don't feel like talking to her about it over the phone. I would much rather talk to her about this in person. "Can we meet at Sal's ice cream parlor in twenty minutes? I would much rather tell you in person then over the phone." Without hesitation Sam agreed and we hung the call. Great; now I have to walk two miles to Sal's in these stupid heels.