𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐞 ✘

10

the next day, which was the last school day of the week, hongjoong felt a little happy. he tried to forget about the feeling he had, but it just wouldn't go away.

the time came and it was after his fifth period, he exited class early and expected to see seonghwa waiting there for him. sadly, when he looked there was no one in sight.

he frowned at the empty halls before making his way towards the stairs, he had no one to storm away from today so he might as well take his time. now that hongjoong got to be around seonghwa more, he was considering taking the tutoring offer. he wasn't sure yet because of his trust issues but something about seonghwa just seemed right.

San:
how did it go yesterday?

Hongjoong:
what?

San:
did you forget to show up..?

Hongjoong:
oh no! i did :)
it went well don't worry

San:
did i seriously just witness you using a smiley face-

Hongjoong:
shut upp
am i not allowed to?

San:
no you are joongie :)
i was just surprised

Hongjoong:
hang on i gotta go

(stream gotta go by chungha)

hongjoong slid his phone into his pocket, getting a better look of what he saw. was he really seeing this correctly? seonghwa hugging a boy that was rumored to have a crush on him, or at least that's what he heard. this shouldn't affect him, especially since he hasn't been talking to seonghwa for long.

it was just his trust issues, and the way their relationship had been escalating. hongjoong knew that he would end up catching feelings for seonghwa, and decided that this was where he let go before he was hurt.

he wiped away the single tear that had slipped, before walking home. he felt his heart aching, and he didn't like it. the voices were starting to come back and hongjoong just couldn't deal with them right now. he didn't want to self harm two nights in a row, but it seemed that this was how it would go.

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this chapter, kind of sucked