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•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-• "What are you talking about?"
You were so lost in thought that you didn't even know you said it out loud.
"Nothing..."
"You can't even talk to me properly anymore.."
His eyes speaked frustration. You had no idea on what to say. You were brought back since this was the first negative emotion you saw from him this entire time.
"It really was nothing.."
"If it truly was nothing then you would've said it by now."
You broke eye contact after that statement not wanting to make this any worse. Before you could say anything he made his way to the door.
"It doesn't matter."
Part of you wanted to grab him by his wrists and stop him from leaving. But your pride said no.
Without knowing it you truly were a coward.
•-•-•-•-•-•
It was now Sunday afternoon with the gloomy weather. As the rain poured down heavily, you laid there in your bed not wanting to get up. You laid there lifelessly thinking about all the events that went down the last couple of days.
You couldn't help but be sad on how stuck you were in this rut. You were definitely in your
Sad bitch hours.
The door creaked open by your sister walking in.
"Mom said to get out of bed and go eat!"
She still didn't get a reply even after her second try. She walks over to your bed and shakes you silly by your shoulders.
"Hurry up! I have places to go!"
"...Can you please leave me alone?"
Your voice was dry and hoarse considering you never left your bed to even brush your teeth.
"Ummm, are you sick.?"
She instantly removes her hands from your shoulders.
"Feel better soon cause my friend is coming over to pick me up to go to her house for a sleepover! So I gotta go!"
She rushes out your door leaving it open. You felt the hallway lights gleam into your dark room.
Incoming FaceTime-
"What's the matter with you?"
Mikasa immediately looks at you through the phone. She sees the puffy bags under your eyes from lack of sleep and crying.
"Nothing I'm just tired."
"Aww, poor thing.."
Hange speaks into the phone since it's on speaker.
"Get over it."
Mikasa was always quiet but she was always tough. Some days she rarely ever talked but she helps the best she can. Even if it's a bit harsh..
"Gee thanks."
You look at her as Hange bursts into laughter. She then places her phone down facing the ceiling.
"It worked! Your mood uplifted. You unlocked the sarcasm."
So stupid.
"Hey, but what's really going on?"
Obviously you didn't want to lie to them since they were your best friends. So you explained everything. From playing with Eren's feelings to even potentially having feelings for Levi. You ranted on and on releasing all the bricks one by one off your shoulders.
"Sweetie, is that you why you haven't been studying with Levi?"
You looked up to see your mother in the doorway listening in.
"Mommm when did you get here?!"
"You really need to express your true feelings and not hide it down or it's just gonna burst."
"..."
All of this comfort really made you feel a lot better. But it also made you realize how selfish you were being.
"Hey Mrs. L/n!!"
"Hi Hange!"
Your mother looks into the phone smiling at Mikasa and Hange.
"Ok mom you can get out now.."
"Fine then, make sure to come eat please. And if you ever need help, I will always be here for you."
She walks out closing the door behind her.
"So get your ass up and go talk to Eren."
"Now?"
"DUH BITCH!"
"Ok shut up your on speaker!"
You end the call to text Eren. To meet up at the park near school. Suddenly it felt like deja vu, like you went through this already.
You finally get out of bed to get ready for you meet up. But you were tired of how stupid you've been lately. At first it may have seem like you changed after releasing yourself from Jean, but it felt like it got even worse.
And bringing other people down with you just because you didn't wanna deal with it all alone was a problem that needed to be fixed. •-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-•-• Iseriously have no idea why this took so freaking long but... I tried my best😭 I SWEAR next chapter will be worth it cuz to me all these filler chapters are boring😐 School is what's up 🤦🏽♀️ Anyways hope you enjoyed 😗 Word Count 775🥳
