A Light In The Darkness

Chapter 1

I hate parties. Absolutely hate them. But here I was walking to one, and I didn't want too of course but I was personally invited to this one. A friend invited me told me I should "have fun".  "I can have fun" was all I said and he replied by telling me that was false and proceeded to pass me the invitation which was now in my hand, pearl white with silver linings  that boarded all across the invitation, my name written in a dark black, right below it the date and location of the party. The letter was fancy so I dressed fancy which is humorous because I never dress up but, here I was wearing a silky black slip on  dress that flows from the back with a slit the starts from mid-thigh and continues all the way down to the length of the dress. And the sleeves were thin and sparkly. The location of the party was far from where I lived so I had to take a taxi which was an hour ride but I was here standing in front of a hotel. Not just any hotel The De-Lance Hotel

I mean I knew Adam had money and his father owned that oil company but this must have been expensive to rent. So there I stood debating whether or not I was worthy enough of stepping foot in this place when I suddenly heard a familiar approaching voice say "I didn't think you'd actually come" I immediately recognized the voice it was Adam's I turned facing him and his blond hair which was normally messy but now it was neat and tucked to the side of his head, and his striking green eyes went well with the color of his all black suit and a white shirt tucked underneath unbuttoned so his chest was showing just enough. I quickly averted my gaze back up to his face blush creeping up my cheeks. "I told you I can have fun" I retaliated to his snarky comment but also to cover up the evidence of what he does to me. I met Adam in high school he needed help with his homework one time I helped him and we've been pretty close friends ever since nothing more nothing less. "why aren't you inside" he asked "Why aren't you" I replied he chuckled and I said "I don't fit in here and you know that. I borrowed this dress from a friend  I don't go to places like this and I only came because you invited me" He looked at me with those soft green eyes now full of what seemed to be sadness and said "Sorry I didn't mean to force you I just thought you would like to come" I immediately regretted what had come out of my mouth and said "NO no it's nothing like that you didn't force me I came willingly and it's just- you know what forget it let's go inside." He agreed worry still filling those eyes but silently led me to the top of the steps and walked me inside. He stopped me and said "You look Amazing Sierra" I blushed and said "Thank you Adam"

 If I thought the outside was impressive the inside was absolutely spectacular, it had high ceilings and bright chandelier lights. The gold pillars all throughout the main entrance had me speechless the marble floor and marble ceiling that went perfectly with the fountains all throughout the hall. "It's beautiful" I said barley more than whisper. "It sure is" I turned around to find Nancy De-Lance standing behind me her pink dress that was long and silky the neckline that was heart shaped. I'm sure the dress was expensive but again it was Nancy. "Grandad spent a lot of money picking out the fountains I helped him out i'm glad you like them" she said with a smug look on her face. Of course De-lance how could I not figure it out. I've known Nancy for years we were once friends in highschool but we grew apart and I apparently am not worth her time and I am garbage she's said that to me on multiple occasions now but coming from her it didn't affect me much. Ive been told that many times by people who don't even know me I'm young I live alone in Manhattan and people are mean when you don't give them what they want so it's not the first time. But of course Adam's here so she greets me with a hug and kiss on the cheek instead. "I didn't see your name on the invitation list" she said and before I could say anything Adam replied "That's because I invited her she's my plus one" The look on Nancy's face said it all "Oh!" she said red creeping up her face "Well i'm glad you did invite her, you look... good" the last word she almost choked out "Thank you i'm glad I came" She nodded and headed off in the opposite direction probably going to scream her head off or fire someone just to make her feel better. That's Nancy for you.

Adam motioned for me to walk to the next hall which was just as spectacular as the last. The mirrors in the room were breathtaking. I stopped for a minute too look at myself in the mirror at my long black hair it's always been this black but it suits me so I never touched it. The dress that hugs my curves and my slim waist in a way that shows off my figure I looked good I guess I didn't really feel beautiful although many people have told me I am it makes me think of my mother and father how I imagine they look so I resent the statement. I turned to Adam who was looking at me with a emotion I just couldn't put my finger on, and that's when he said it the words coming out of his mouth like he just finished holding the weight of the world on his shoulders "I LOVE YOU" he said the words came at me in such a surprise that I took a step back to comprehend what was happening right now. Loved me Adam loved me. I knew there was a connection there but love that was a big thing i've never loved anyone i've been alone most of my life. I was in and out of foster homes till I was 15 and then the state let me go. I'm 19 now, and i've learned to survive on my own but i've never met anyone who had a permanent impact on my life. Everyone I ever met was just  A passing person someone who wouldn't be there for long, but again I wasn't an easy person to get to know sure I was fun but I had a limit no ones ever really stuck around hell my own parents didn't even bother too. I never knew what happened to them. I just know I was left on the steps of the police station in N.Y.C my parents didn't even bother to write a note. I shook my head- Adam he said he loved me and there he was, those soft green eyes waiting for my reply it must've taken a lot of courage but I can't the weight of it hit me - not right now I need to empty my head and think about all of this I started backing away then I was running I could hear Adam calling my name but I kept running where, I didn't know I just ran. I eventually saw a door opened it up and walked in my panting breaths eventually slowing down as I rested my head on the door and I slid down all the way to the floor trying to comprehend what had just happened. 

I was mid way thinking about what the hell to do, when I realized where I was, I was sitting in a Library. The shelves all lined up in rows of tens maybe even more there were a lot of books. I stood up to get a better view and before I knew it I was walking to the shelves like something was pulling me too take a closer look and I was in between 2 shelves running my hands through the racks and racks of books there. It was sometime later that I realized I was still here and I was  roaming the book shelves something about them felt calming and made me feel at home that thought caught me by surprise i've never felt at home anywhere, everywhere I went felt like a temporary stay but here I wanted to stay here. I knew I had to go I had to face Adam and tell him i'm not ready for that at least not yet. There were reasons as to why I wasn't ready reasons I definitely didn't want to get into. 

So I was walking towards the door when I realized I had left my phone on one of the shelves I had probably put it there while I was enjoying myself. I went back to get it. Once I had reached the place where I had left it I picked up my phone and on my way back I almost tripped over a book on the floor that definitely wasn't there when I was looking through this shelf so I picked it up. The cover was beautiful it had mountains coated with snow on the top in the background and purple sky with hundreds of stars in the sky it was beautiful and calming with a title I couldn't pronounce for the life of me if only this place was real. I opened up the book and before I knew it the page turned gold and shiny glowing and fluttering "AHHH" I screamed and dropped the book the page still humming I started to hear voices and laughter. It must be some kind of projector in the back of this thing. Feeling like an idiot I went down to pick up the book and the next thing I knew I was falling.....