That One Boy | A Upstead Fanfiction

Part 12

To be honest. I don't think I was ready to be a mom again. My daughter died 5 years ago because of a car crash I started. She was dead because of me. I wanted to be there for Jay. But I feel like I couldn't so I talked to Will about it.

Will: What's up Hailey?

Hailey: I told Jay that was going to be there for him and his kid right but I can't be a mom again.

I started to cry. Will came and sat in my hospital bed and put his big cold hands on my shoulders.

Will: If you want to tell me you can. Why again? You don't have to tell me why. I'm going to be here for you no matter what.

Hailey: When I was 15, I was sexually assaulted. I ended up killing the guy from self-defense. Then a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I didn't want to kill the baby, it was a life that was created for a reason. I wanted to raise the baby and take care of it the way I never experienced. Then I gave birth to a healthy girl. Then fast forward 3 years right before I met Jay. Me and my daughter Brooklynn were in a major car crash and we got taken to Med. I was treated by you and Brooklyn got treated by a Dr. Choi. After they went up for a surgery. A few hours later Dr. Choi came down and told me I lost my baby girl.

Will: Oh, Hailey, come here.

Me and Will hugged it was nice to have someone to talk to about my problems that wasn't Jay. Then my phone started ringing it was Jay.

Hailey: Hey Jay if you meet them?

Jay: Yeah it's a boy and his name is Finn Halstead

Hailey: Aw I can't wait until your back. I miss you and love you.

Jay: I miss you too. Love you.

I hang up and I just cry Will was right there hugging me so I felt better. Then this woman walks.

Nat: You must be Hailey, I'm Dr. Manning or you can call me Nat.

Hailey: Hi Nat, nice to meet you.

Nat: Well I'm Will's wife so if you need anything from us. Just ask.

Hailey: Thanks Nat um I have a girl question for Nat.

Will: Ok, I have patients anyway. I will leave you two to talk.

Nat: What's up?

Hailey: How can a kid affect a relationship?

Nat: Well Will and I wanted kids. Is this about the whole Jay thing.

Hailey: Yeah.

Nat: I knew I remember you. You were here with Brooklynn 2 years ago.

Hailey: How did you know?

Nat: I was one of the doctor's on Brooklynn's case. It got to me. Before she was put down for surgery. She talked about you a lot. Like how you have the ocean blue eyes and she said you took care of her every well. I'm sorry I didn't talk to you after she passed. I took it very hard. Hse was so sweet just like her mom.

Hailey: Don't say your sorry. She was really sweet. If you meet her you love her.

Nat: I still visit her grave on her birthday and the day she died. I know I didn't know her at all. But I miss her. I wish I could have got to know her better.

Hailey: I bet she would love you so much.

Nat: I know what it feels like to lose a child. When I was 15 I had a teen pregnancy. I carried him to full term. After I had a healthy boy I brought home. Me and Jay were best friends in high school so he was always at my place. He had just gotten out of the academy so he had to hide his gun from my little boy Andrew. Me and Jay were outside saying goodbye and Jay must have forgotten about his gun and Andrew was playing with it. I heard a loud bang and I ran inside looking for Andrew to make sure he was ok and he was laying on the ground. He was laying in his own blood. Jay called 911 and I knew the basics from med school so I tried to save him but the paramedics were 1 minute too late. I lost my boy to a gun he was only 4 years old.

Hailey: Do you blame Jay for what happened?

Nat: No, I know it was not his fault because he didn't put his gun there.

Hailey: What do you mean he wasn't the one who put his gun there?

Nat: Jay had left to get pizza and there was a knock on the door. A few days before that we were being followed so I grabbed Jay's gun for self defense and it turned out to be his little brother Will. He calmed me down and put his gun on the bedroom side table. I slept in the guest room. I forgot about it. I blame myself for what happened.

Hailey: Hey, I'm here if you need anything.

Nat: Thanks, I'm here for you too.

Nat walked out and Kevin walked in.

Hailey: Hey, I have not seen you in a while what's up?

Kevin: I so sorry Hailey.

Hailey: Sorry for what?

Kevin: Your dad is being released in an hour.

Hailey: What? You said he was never going to get out.

Kevin: I know I did and well here is the thing. He has a twin brother that looks just like him. So the judge said we did not have enough evidence that he abused you.

I started to cry. I felt pain, anger, I wanted to blow up. Kevin came over to me and pulled me into a tight hug.

Kevin: Hey, you know what when you come to work we will start a huge investigation against your father, so we can put him away for good. Where are you staying right now?

Hailey: I was going to stay with Jay but there is some stuff going on so.

Kevin: If he hurt you I'm going to kick his ass.

Hailey: No, not really.

Kevin: What do you mean not really?

Hailey: He just found out he has a child.

Kevin: Who's it.

Hailey: Erin's but she is dead. The last time they saw each other was before I met him.

Kevin: Wait, Erin is dead.

Hailey: Yeah she died in a car crash 2 days ago.

Kevin: What about the kid?

Hailey: Well all I know is that his name is Finn Halstead and he is 4 years old, and Jay is going to bring him back to Chicago to live with him. Hey Kev, can I stay with you for a few days so I can think through what I'm doing.

Kevin: Of course my place is always open to Hailey Upton.

Hailey: Thanks Kev.

Kevin: Of course Now get some rest you have a big day tomorrow.