Destined SidNaaz - ✅

The Winter

Naaz keeps on calling him and it is going unanswered everytime.

Sid's POV:
I sat on the bonnet of my car feeling heart broken. I started feeling that this trauma is more intense than the pain I went through since past 2 years when I lost Aish. Why did I give the right to anyone to hurt me like this?

May be my thinking is unreasonable because I never told her that I love her neither did she tell me that she loves me. She accepted me with my flaws and when she did she never expected anything in return. She never put any conditions. I think I should give her sometime. It's her new year resolution and this is October, what if she has forgotten him?

But she couldn't give up on other resolutions, what if she has failed in this as well?

Too many questions, yet I can't answer a single one. I think I am asking these questions to a wrong person. The answer should come from her.

Hey! Why is she answerable to you?

Because she is my fiance!

Yes, The fiance whom you don't trust!

So what do you want me to do now?

Just give her some time, lets wait and see if she herself speaks up!

But for how long? We will be marrying soon.

You know her she is not a person who would cheat, yes she is hiding this from you but you still don't know the reason. She convinced her parents for you so she is under no influence or pressure to marry you that you think she can cheat on you.

Right she can't cheat me! I will stay calm until she opens up.

Do you even know that you just left her house without informing her? She might be panicked!

All this time my fingers are fidgety and legs are shaking without my knowledge as I am engrossed thinking about her. (Just Sidharth thing)

Oh no!! I touch my pocket to reach out to phone, but it is not there. I left it inside my car. I get into my driving seat and check my phone. 156 missed calls!!! All from Shehnaaz!! Oh God!! She is worried!! Last missed call was 5 mins back! I call her back but she is not picking up the call.

I drive back to her house. I put my hands to knock and the door is open. I go inside and search for her and I find her fallen on the ground in her room. I run towards her, pick her up, her face fully wet and red, her eyes are swollen, her hands and feet cold. What have I done? I pat on her face.

'Shehnaaz!! Shehnaaz!! Sweetheart open your eyes!! Look at me! I am sorry jaan!! Please open your eyes dear!'

I rush into the kitchen get a glass of water and splash few drops on her face. Her eyes flutter. I rub her cold hands.

'Shehnaaz! Please open your eyes jaan. I am very sorry. Please darling!!'

She slowly opens her eyes. There is just one word coming off her mouth..

'Sidhaarrthh' and she hugs me tightly as if she will never leave me and we both burst crying in each others arm.

Sid rubs her back to calm her but he himself is weeping like a baby. Naaz's grip on him gets tighter and tighter, yet Sid's focus is on calming her. After 15 mins, they both calm down a bit. She loosens her grip and looks at his face, he looks at her, they both wipe each others tears. Sid gives her the water to drink, she sips half of it and holds the glass near his mouth indicating him to drink, he sips the water.

Naaz: I am sorry Sidharth. It's all my fau.. (Sid places his finger on her lips)

Sid: No dear, its all my fault. I never gave you any reason for my anger or anxiety. If today anything bad had happened to you, I would have breathed my last (Naaz puts her finger on his lips)

Naaz: Don't you dare to say that Sidharth. I want to grow old with you. You know Sidharth, whenever, I went to park I didn't see love between young couples holding hands, hugging or kissing. I saw love between old couples who wouldn't even touch each other physically but walk slowly with each other, sit and talk. Imagine, they spending their whole life together, yet they have so much to speak and tell each other. When they don't have any physical attraction but they just want each other to be with them until death do them apart.

Sidharth just look at her amazed, feeling the emotion in each and every word she spoke.

Naaz: When I was working as a trainee during my graduation, I met a guy in my office. He was asked to mentor me. RPS, Rohan Preet Singh.

Sid: (hold her hand) Shehnaaz, you need not explain if you don't feel like or are uncomfortable about it.

Naaz: No, Sidharth let me speak. The fear of losing you if more painful than anything in this world. I don't want this situation to repeat in future.

So, he started with mild flirt and as a young lad, I fell for him. His concerns and flirty talks made me feel special. Every girl likes to be treated like she is the princess. That's how my father treated me and I wanted same attention from my partner. I went on date with him, but I didn't allow him to get intimate with me. As I said for me love is beyond physical needs. My internship came to end and I still kept messaging him.

I went on to do my post graduation and slowly his messages were decreasing. But I thought probably it might be due to work pressure since he got promoted. We were friends on FB too. One day I was having a chat with my classmate and I told him that I have a boyfriend and he just asked me about him. I showed his pic and he said "Are you sure? Coz he is my school friend's boyfriend" I said may be you are mistaken. He said not at all and he gave me all the details like his name, parent's name, his address, school. I was shocked, he told me his friends name as well and when I checked his FB account, he was friends with her.

I still went ahead not to assume anything and ask him directly to which he denied and told me that she was just a friend. After some time he totally stopped messaging me or answering my calls. I was still waiting for him to reply some day but it never came. We never broke-up officially so I never thought it ended. I didn't tell anything to my parents as well since I didn't have any answer.

My post graduations were over and I started working, yet I missed him. Then my dad asked me to see Paras, I just agreed since I never had any confirmation from RPS. When I came to Bangalore after Paras incident, I called him from PCO since he didn't receive calls from my number, he picked up and when he heard my voice he acted like a normal friend. Then I asked him why did you leave me? He said I don't know. I was shocked he didn't have any valid answer. Then he said may be if we had any physical relationship, I might have considered the relationship, we haven't had any physical relationship than why are you getting so senti?

That's when I realized he just wanted to use me and he played with my emotions. He didn't care for the emotions. I hate him to the core and I didn't tell you about him because I don't find him important now. And this diary is 2 years old Sidharth, did you check the date on diary?

Sid was speechless. He was feeling guilty for reacting without giving her chance to explain. Naaz understood his situation. She hugged him.

Naaz: It's not your fault Sidharth, it was a misunderstanding and I am glad that we overcome this situation. Please don't blame yourself for anything. Winter turns everything lifeless but we realize the beauty of Spring only after we've faced the Winter!!

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Long chapter and a painful one too!! Please forgive me if this made you sad..

Stay tuned to experience the Spring Season post Winter.. that's our next chapter!!

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