I Come Like Rain

MAYBE THIS WAS A BAD IDEA?

    -Even when the sun is up I'm still
        Surrounded by your shadow-

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Most times when I think of all the things I would have done if I had just smiled and chatted with whoever came my way maybe I would have friends by now, but that didn't happen and hence my question...how the fuck am I supposed to react or respond?! Sure I've spoken to most of them but that's different telling them what to do is different from actually engaging in a conversation.

So maybe I shouldn't have come, I should have come up with a lame ass excuse about my cat which I don't have or a flu which is non existent you know but this, this is something different all together. My phone vibrated in my back pocket it's probably from them.

"Hey...so last minute changes we are at Manda Hill instead sorry for the mix up the guys thought it would be better there" I took a deep breath

" No its okay I'm not yet there even, I'll text you when I get there."

"Yeah okay, straight to the top yeah."

Of fucking course they wanted to change malls maybe this is a sign from the heavens, maybe I shou- stop it Rain you have to do this ! Soon enough I will be on my way, this time you will be on a plane to a different country,with different people. A new start and a new beginning, a fresh page, I took one maybe breath and got on the Ulendo app and typed my location and destination.

I'm so glad the Ulendo driver wasn't far he arrived fast and I was nearing the mall, I texted Tracy telling her I'm almost there she said to meet her at Shaka's Grill. The weather was perfect even through it was evening it wasn't cold just cool enough for a light jacket, my outfit wasn't too flashy just causal for the chill. I wore a black skinny jean with a white and black off shoulder crop top with white Nike airforce and a black denim jacket, I let my hair fall in it's curls I don't have time to put it in a bun.

I got to Shaka's Grill , looking around trying to find Tracy or any of my co-workers I spotted Michael,he was waving his hand. Well didn't he look fine as always in a black and white striped t-shirt with a black fitting Jean with white Nike air force, would think me and him are twining gosh his hot, unlike most of my co-workers he was light skinned with brown eyes lighter than the others but darker than mine his one of the hot ones, Joshua sat net to him in a white shirt and dark blue jeans with whit, blue and black Jordans  his fair skinned with dimples on both sides of his cheeks his hot too. Shawn was sitting at the end of the booth rocking an all black outfit with white Nike 270 and man was his looking good. In front of the boys sat Tracy, Natasha, Lucy and William. Tracy looked fine as always in a pink strapless fitting dress with white strap slippers, Natasha wore the same outfit in black with pink slippers I guess it's was a bestfriend twining thing and both of them did black braids so you know and they both had hour glass bodies they were hot though Tracy was a shad lighter than Natasha they still made it work, Lucy was in a blue high-waisted denim skirt with a white string top with combat boots her small curves just right in her outfit which looked fire if you ask me in shorts braids and William wore a pink shirt written friends in black, fitting black jeans with black and white vans he was darker than all of them but his skin looks smooth to touch that dark chocolate skin with pretty eyes if he was dark you would think his Chinese.

As I approached the booth, Michael noticed me first then all of them turned to look at me it's like the whole room just went quiet and my heart was beating super fast and so loud I thought they could hear it. Tracy then stood up and rushed to me and hugged me like we are the best of friends which is weird and I'm the awkward type of human, as she wrapped her arms around me I just patted her back and slightly smiled which looked like a grimace.