Finding Peace in War // DreamSMP

Chapter 12: Contrasting Thoughts

 "Do you mind if I kiss you?"...

I was taken back by his question. Yes, I was extremely attracted to him, but I wasn't sure if engaging in a kiss would be morally correct. I knew deep down that he was probably just touch deprived. After all, he had been living alone for so long.

I looked at him with wide eyes and my lips parted in disbelief. I sighed before putting my hand on his knee.

"Clay...I know that you have been alone for a long time. Which is why I think you don't actually want to kiss me, you just want to kiss someone." Dream pulled himself away. I relaxed as It was made clear that he was going to respect my decision. I continued.

"Spending time with you lately has really overwhelmed me. Everything I thought I knew about you was wrong. It's been difficult to have a solid perspective on anything when everything has been completely different to what I thought it was." He nods his head and releases a subtle smile.

"I get it. I'm sorry if i've made you feel uncomfortable." He apologises. His respectfulness only made me more attracted to him.

I appreciated that he didn't make this awkward by rejecting him. We sat in silence, comfortable silence, for a moment. That's when I decided to announce something important.

"I'm going to Manburg today." I looked down at my legs that were crossed on the couch.

"Alright well I'll start getting to gear ready." He stated whilst patting my thigh, getting up from his seat. He didn't get it.

"No, I'm going alone."

"I'm sorry, what?" he furrowed his brows at me, flashing me an 'are you insane' look.

I raised my brows quickly and pursed my lips, he knew what I said, he just needed to process it.

"Luna, you'll be dead within 5 minutes of stepping into those grounds." He looked at me as if he was angry that I would even think about going alone. But no matter how much reasoning he tried to drill into my head, I had my heart set on going alone. I couldn't risk anyone dying because of me.

"I'm sorry Clay, but you can't change my mind. I can protect myself." I get up from my seat and try to escape his vision. He grabs me by my elbow and pulls me back. He stared deep into my eyes. He looked as if we wanted to appear angry and demanding but deep down I knew he was genuinely worried.

"Yes you can protect yourself, but people can make mistakes luna. At the end of the day, you're still human and if you die-" I snapped at him before he could finish his sentence.

"So what If I die?! I don't have anything to lose! You said that yourself. I know how to fight. If we didn't spend so much time getting to know each other than I probably would have killed you by now." I practically spat the words into his face. People could look at me and assume I was just some random cookie cutter girl. But only people who had the audacity to tempt me would know that I could do so much more than hurt them.

These past couple of months have taught me something about myself. I cared less about my life in comparison to Tommy and Wilburs. They were everything I had and I didn't want to live in a world where they weren't there.

Dream finally lets go of my arm, still staring into my eyes. His cheeks flushed bright pink as he looekd away with an angry expression.

"Why does it matter so much if I go? We hated each other a week ago." He shakes his head before finally responding.

"I don't want you getting hurt Luna."

"Like I said, I can protect myself. Plus if you think you're so tough, explain why I never lost a single battle against you."

"Neither of us won or lost if we both survived, you moron." He began pissing me off at this point. He couldn't accept that I was a skilld fighter and I was smart enough to get myself out of situations.

"I'm going alone, and there is nothing you can do about it." I stated, putting my foot down. He deeply sighed, rolling his eyes.

"Do whatever you want, but if you get hurt, just remember that I told you so." He stormed off into the bedroom. I took this as my queue to leave. I was fuming at this point. He was acting so unbelievable. I knew damn well I could protect and fight for myself because I had been doing it for so long.

I rushed out of the house and as far away from the property as possible before slowly my pace down. As angry as I was, I still couldn't let people find Dreams hideout due to my clumsiness.

I travelled back to the bunker cautiously, still aware that Jschlatt and the citizens of Manburg knew where it was.

I planned to enter Manburg tonight, just at dusk. With this in mind, I gathered weapons and dressed appropriately in incase a fight broke out. I was so livid which made me physically and mentally ready.

You fucked up Jschlatt.