colours •• muke

four

“What took you so fucking long?” seethed Luke as he stood by Harry’s car, arms crossed over his chest. He watched as his two friends’ expressions changed from happy and excited to shocked and confused. Luke was normally a chill person, and even when he’s angry, he wouldn’t take his anger out on anyone; he’d keep his anger to himself until he calms down.

“Are you just gonna stand there and stare at me? Get in the damn car,” said Luke in irritation as he walked over to the driver’s side. “Toss me the keys,” he said to Harry, and the green-eyed boy dug into his pocket to take out his car keys and tossed them over to Luke, who caught them. He unlocked the car and got in the driver’s seat, waiting for the other two to get in.

With Ashton in the passenger’s seat and Harry in the backseat, Luke pulled out of the parking lot and drove away from where the Halloween festival was held.

The car ride was awfully quiet, not even the radio was on. Both Ashton and Harry would occasionally glance over at Luke, who looked really angry for some reason they didn’t know.

Ashton cleared his throat. “Um, is everything alright, Luke?” he asked quietly and carefully, not wanting Luke to get even angrier.

“Just peachy,” he glanced at him and flashed him a sarcastic smile before looking back ahead and focusing on the road.

Harry noticed how Luke was driving over the speed limit and, being afraid of driving fast from a past experience, he said, “You might want to slow down a little bit.”

Luke suddenly took a sharp turn and pulled into the side of the road, earning surprised gasps from the other two boys and honks from cars behind him but he didn’t care. He turned and glared at Harry. “Why don’t you come and fucking drive instead of me, then?”

Harry’s eyes widened, feeling intimidated by Luke’s new dark aura. He slumped his shoulders and looked out the window, not saying anything. His lower lip was quivering and he felt tears fill his eyes; he was an overly sensitive person.

“Man, chill,” said Ashton softly, making Luke roll his eyes and huff, starting to drive again.

They stayed quiet for the rest of the ride, the curly-haired boys knowing that if they made any sound, Luke could easily snap at them to shut up.

Arriving home, Luke pulled into the driveway and got out of the car, slamming the car door shut, making both Ashton and Harry slightly jump up in surprise. But, of course, Luke didn’t give a damn and he just rushed into the house, slamming the door behind him yet again. He was so angry at the world, he felt like breaking and punching things.

Seconds later, Ashton walked in and crossed his arms over his chest, sending a glare over at Luke. “What the fuck is wrong with you, dude? You made my boyfriend upset—”

“Boyfriend!” snapped Luke, cutting Ashton off and glaring back at him. “Boyfriend, boyfriend, boyfriend, fucking soul mate! I’m tired of hearing this from you every day! I’m tired of seeing you and Harry get all affectionate around me! I’m tired of chasing my soul mate but I don’t even know who the fuck she is!”

“She’s dead, Luke! Wake up and face it! Life isn’t all rainbows and unicorns, alright? Life is never fucking fair and you need to open your eyes and realise that! That—”

“She’s alive!”

Ashton stopped yelling and stared at Luke’s red face and teary eyes – tears of anger and weariness. He was so tired of everything. From the things that happened to him in his past to the way he’s living now.

“…What?” asked Ashton quietly.

Luke shook his head, finally breaking down. His lower lip was quivering and his tears were falling down his cheeks and then dropping from his jaw. He ran his shaky hands through his hair and tugged at it, letting out quiet sobs. “Th-this is too much, Ashton… I-I can’t handle it… I’m supposed to be happy but I’m so fucking sick of it,” he sniffled, wiping away his tears, but they kept falling. He felt overwhelmed with him being desperate to find his soul mate and being alone since he moved out of his uncle’s house when he was eighteen. He felt so overwhelmed and all he wanted was to just feel loved. Not any kind of love, but the kind where he looks at his soul mate and knows that – without a doubt – she loves him just as much as he loves her, but apparently, life had other plans for him and wanted him to suffer.

“It’s okay, Luke,” said Ashton quietly. He didn’t know what to do. He’s not used to his best friend crying in front of him, but this is the second time he’s done it in the past week.

“It’s not okay, Ashton!” snapped Luke again, looking over at Ashton with bloodshot, teary eyes. “She’s somewhere out there but I have no fucking idea who she is! I can’t even look at you and Harry without feeling jealous because I-I want that, Ash,” his tone gradually got quieter as his breathing and tears got heavier. He looked like a mess with a red face and tears repeatedly escaping his eyes, and his hair was starting to stick to his forehead since he was starting to sweat because of how hard he was crying and trying to hold back his sobs.

Ashton gingerly walked over and wrapped his arms around the blonde, letting him crying into his shoulder despite the other boy being a few inches taller. Luke clung to him and hugged him back so tightly, he could feel his heartbeat in his wrist veins because of the pressure he was applying by hugging him tightly. He just cried into Ashton’s shoulder, soaking the boy’s shirt with his tears.

“Hey, how about this?” Ashton slowly pulled back from the hug, wiping away his best friend’s tears. “I’m gonna make some hot chocolate for the both of us and we’ll celebrate the rest of today by cuddling and watching scary movies, yeah? Let’s forget there’s something like soul mates. Soul mates don’t exist right now. Only you, me, hot chocolate and scary movies.”

Luke didn’t even care that he was practically being babied – which he usually hated because he liked thinking that he can take care of himself. He just nodded and sniffled, wiping away his tears. “Okay.”

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ashton is such an angel i love him

sorry for the late update i suck

idk what to say other than go check out my new 5sos fic, shelter? it's the 5sos version of shelter by harlan coben

im trying to update most of my fics today and thats not going as planned so far bc it took me about two hours to write this chapter and its not even a long chapter??

so yeah im sorry for the sucky chapter

love you <3

- j.