California Dreamin': The Sequel to Leather & Lace

Chapter 24

Before Tinsley could say anything else, Jax lifted her, throwing her over his shoulder and stomped off towards his dorm, Tinsley screaming and beating him in the back the whole way.

"Put me the fuck down you piece of shit!" Yelled Tinsley.

But Jax didn't put her down, not until he reached the dorm and slammed the door.

"Now, what the actual fuck do you think your doing out there?" Said Jax. Tinsley took in his appearance and noticed the anger filling his eyes. Anger mixed with hurt. Tinsley knew he was hurting over his decision to fuck Ima but she didn't feel bad for him. He knew the deal from the get go but he did it anyway.

"I'm speaking the goddamn truth. Something that no one around here obviously knows how to do!" Tinsley yelled.

"And what truth is that? We don't know for sure that JT was right in thinking that mom and Clay had anything to do with his death. Those letters could just be the ramblings of a bitter, delusional old man." Said Jax. "Look, I know I'm responsible for all of this after last night but you going thermonuclear in there on Ima and my mom was uncalled for."

"Uncalled for? You're kidding right? That cum rag in there deserves so much more than the beating I just laid on her. And your mother, well, she deserves so much more than a fucking tongue lashing and my accusations! After all, those god forsaken letters are the fucking reason you thought it was a good idea to cheat on the mother of your children!" Said Tinsley as she walked towards the chair sitting at the desk before taking a seat in it. She was starting to come down from her adrenaline rush and knew that a crash was imminent. She didn't want to be anywhere near Jax when it did because she knew when she crashed, so would her will power. And if her willpower crashed right now, she would forgive his sorry ass for everything. Trying to calm herself, she took a deep breath and leaned forward in the chair, resting her head in her hands.

"I just said this was all my fault! What more do you want from me Tins? I'm in the middle of it here! I told you when I got out of prison I wanted to leave SAMCRO. But who pretty much begged me to stay? That would be you! You begged me to stay in this life! " Said Jax.

"I didn't beg you to stay! I told you to stay because I felt like you would regret leaving. That's neither here nor there because even if I had said yes, we would still be in the life and you still would have fucked Ima last night instead of coming home and dealing with your goddamn feelings!" Said Tinsley as she stood from the chair. Sitting wasn't calming her. She felt more like a caged animal, ready to lash out at anyone who got in her way.

"But to answer your question, I don't want a motherfucking from you other than money to support your kids. Think you can handle that?" Said Tinsley as tears began to stream down her face once more.

"Tinsley, please..." started Jax.

"Just stop Jax. I've made up my mind. I'm leaving. I told you from jump street that cheating was a deal breaker. I'm going home and I'm taking my kids with me! I dare you to try and fucking stop me!" Said Tinsley.

"Is that what you want? You want to leave me?" Whispered Jax. He looked totally broken in that moment and it broke Tinsley's heart seeing him in pain. It didn't matter that she hated him in that moment. She loved him with her whole heart.
I must me strong. Don't let him sweet talk you Tinsley kept telling herself.

"Fuck no, it's not what I want. I love you so much that I can't hardly function most days but you fucked Ima knowing what the consequences would be if you cheated on me. You knew that I was going to leave if you did and that I would NEVER take you back. No, I don't want to leave you but I refuse to let Gracie and Lizzie grow up thinking that it's ok for a man to cheat on his wife just because they had a fucking fight over something that was done out of love. I refuse to have Jagger, Abel, and Thomas think that treating women like come kind of cheap toy is ok either. You made your bed Jax. It's time you fucking lay in it!" Said Tinsley as she stomped out of the dorm room and towards the main room of the club house.

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When Tinsley reached the main room, she took in the faces of all the guys standing around. Everyone was eying her like she was a loose cannon. Gemma was still attending to Ima, a look of pure rage on her face.
Oh well, the queen will get the fuck over it Tinsley thought to herself.

"Where do you think your going?" Asked Gemma.

"Not that it's any of your motherfucking business, but anywhere but here." Said Tinsley

"You might not be my concern but those grand-babies are." Said Gemma, walking towards Tinsley.

"My kids are not your fucking concern. I am their mother. Not you. You don't get a goddam say in what I do!" Shouted Tinsley.

"Watch it Tinsley. You know what I'm capable of." Seethed Gemma.

"Is that a threat? What? You gonna have me killed too? Y'all heard that right?" Said Tinsley as she looked around the club house at everyone standing around.

"Not a threat. But know, I would sure hate for something to happen to you." Said Gemma.

"And you do know that if anything happens to me, you're going to be the first fucking person they come looking for right?" Said Tinsley.

"You forget where you are sweetheart. This is my family. You think they are going to take your side on this?" Said Gemma.

"You're right. They probably will back you on this but that doesn't me I don't have contingencies in place. If anything happens to me Gemma, hell will rain down on you and everyone and everything you love! Don't try me Gemma." Said Tinsley as she walked towards the door to leave. All of that was a bluff. Tinsley didn't have any contingencies in place. Not yet anyway.

Before she could get out the door, Gemma got in one last comment.

"This isn't over" yelled Gemma.

"You're damn right it ain't over! This has just began!" I yelled back before slamming the door to the club house.