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Chapter 18 - Spencer

(Josh above)

I was laying there with josh covered with a sheet naked, we just fell asleep after some rough but intimate sex. That's when I got a ring from Bull.

"Hello" I said in a kind of raspy voice.

"Blondie, baby girl I haven't talked to you in a while, sorry for waking you but I've got some news for yah boy josh."

"Yeah? I'll put him on."

I turned over to josh and nudged josh to get him up. "Here the phone, Bull" I said, and suddenly his eyes grew wide and his skin got pale, like he just seen a terrifying ghost. He grabbed the phone shakily and spoke.

"H-hello"

"Joshua my man how are you?"

"M-man Bull I-I swear I didn't do it I did everyth-".

"Josh stop being such a pussy and listen to what he has to say, don't waste his time." He turned his head to me and just gave me a death glare.

(Josh P.O.V)
"I have a job for you tonight I need you to make this cash for me joshua, I'll give you half cut..but I warn you this is a dangerous one."

"Ok I'll do it"

"You sure you up for the par? My friend?"

"Y-yeah man"

"Don't bullshit me Joshua, Ill cut your couilles [Balls] off and send them to your, how do those Rico suaves say it ? Buela?".

And after a slight chuckle the line went dead.

"Thanks for making me feel like a man Spence" He said sounding a little upset."Well your sure as hell didn't look or sound like one five seconds ago."

There goes that death glare, he flips me over and spanks me one good time. "Bad girl" he says with a wink and a lip bite, one that makes my heart flutter but legs clench.

~*~

Josh looked scared, intimidated and just in all looked like he was going to pass out and shit himself. But brushed it by acting freaky towards me.

So later that day I dropped josh off at a "Pick up drop off zone" and he did a deal and made his way to the corner where I was parked distant from. "Its getting heavy out here, I only have so much left" he said a bit worried. "How much you make so far?" , "8 G's , but bulls mark was 10." He said counting the weight he had left. "Well I got some new customer to go to, 5th and Main the alley way". He said, so I started up the car and drove to the destination.

Before he got out I asked him if  he wanted to leave the money and he shook his head no. He got out and jogged a bit to the alley entrance where he dissapeared. Then suddenly maybe five minutes later I heard a loud bang and a bright flash. I practically jumped out of my skin and ducked down, I peered up and seen a man running out of the alley, tucking stuff away and dashing down the street until he disappeared. I hopped out the car and ran to the alley, where josh was laying, bleeding, dying. I hurried and pulled my phone out and dialed 911.

~*~

"Miss. Tarland?" The doctor said startling me out of my restless gaze. "Please tell me he is gonna be alright!?" I said tears brimming and burning my eye lids finally spilling over. "The bullet was maybe three hairs from missing his heart, we did all we could but I'm sorry he is in a coma" he said. I looked at my dry blood covered hands and sobbed so loud, bull squeezed my knee gently and hugged me to comfort me but no, "Don't touch me you did this". " Blondie, don't blame me I-" he was interrupted by A officer that  walked over to me, and bull walked away, He hates the 12. "M'am I'm detective Deacon from LVPD, I'd like to ask you some questions?" He asked. "Please not now" I said brushing them off and with that I took off out of the hospital, I want to kill this piece of shit that did this.

~*~

Josh's P.O.V

Bang. Flash. Boom.

"Am I dead?"

"My baby boy, Mama's missed you so much, your so handsome , you've grown so much, you've changed so much. Honey I want you to quit selling that stuff, I watch you everyday she's a keeper, she makes you happy and smile and that's all I want for my boy. I'm sorry I left the way I did, I have to go now... You can make it through josh, my little soldier...push through joshy...push through."

My mom who passed when I was 8. Cancer took her. From me. I blamed myself

"I love you mommy"

"I love you too baby, how about the park, yeah?" Her English accent spoke to me.

Memories as a child flash through my mind, before she was gone.

"I love you mom, I'm glad you like her, because I love her."

~*~

A/N
Did Bull set this up?

Did he want josh killed off so he can be closer to Spencer?

Was he jealous?

Was it one of Castro's men?