After spending four days in the hospital with josh, he was released. "I want to see my Nana, will you take me?" Josh asked as I helped him to the car. "Yeah baby, anything for you" I stood on the tips of my toes and kissed his cheek. I walked to the passengers side of the car and opened the door for him, then walked over to the drivers side. About a ten minute drive to, Everlake nursing home josh and I made some small talk but little to none.
"Oh my joshy poo" she smiled, arms wide in reach. "Nana!". Josh moved as quickly as he could over to his grandmother, he looked like a small child the way he made his way to her. I couldn't help but smile and giggle a bit at the sight of the two.
" I'm sorry Nana, where are my manners? You remember Spencer, right?" "Well of course I do, Spencer honey" she embraced me in a tight little hug, the cutest. "Mrs. Norberry, how are you?"
"I'm doing fine sweetheart, but call me Shirley" She smiled at me.
"Nana, Spencer and I are dating now." Josh announces to her. I love the way josh loves his grandmother, He adores her and respects her. That's the same bond my grandmother and I shared once before she passed.
We spent about a half hour chatting up with her, she's such a funny sweet old lady, I could love her like I loved my grandmother. After saying our goodbyes, we head off to the car. I sit in the driver seat and its a quiet ride back to josh's to pick up some of his things.
We park in his drive way, and I run to his side of the car but he swings it open-I back away and try to help him but he nudges away dismissing my gesture. I just put my head down and look at my shoes. "Look at me." I don't pick my head up. "Spencer, look. at. me."
"I love you and thank you, but I'm a man and I need the strength to do it on my own, even if it hurts." He said lifting my chin. "I almost lost you, I want to be there for you josh." , "Give me a chance to be a man, no pain no gain babe" and with that he kissed my cheek and walked toward his front door. A smile tugged at the corner of my lips, watching his butt.
"Don't fucking touch me, you don't care and if you did, you wouldve showed up to the hospital.. You piece of shit!" I quickly ran into the living area hearing josh yell at his father. "And you won't quick this shit dad!" , "I know son I kn-" he was cut off by josh flipping thevtable, syringes, needles flying towards the window. "You don't know! This has got you fucked up, ever since mom died you've been pumping this shit in your system, you know what keep at it because your gonna fucking rot yourself away, enjoy prick!" Tears falling down his face , "Josh stop it" I said as he limped toward me. "Upstairs now!" , "You need t-" , "NOW!". I found myself obeying him. " fine handi" I joked but slightly upset.
After him packing a suitcase, I carried it down to the car for him and entered the house.
"I know, I was wrong and I shouldve came, b-but I-I can't do this anymore..." He sobbed. "Put the gun down Mr.Harmon" I said shakily. "Josh!!!! Come down here quickly." Josh came down as quick as he could. "Oh shit dad no, put it down, man." , "I-I can't, I cat be this disappointment of a father anymore." Click. Boom.
I caught josh as he collapsed to his knees scrambling, specks of blood covered the walls, couches, and our faces. Brain and fragments of skull covered the walls and floor. "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" He screamed in agony. I held him in my lap, rocking back and forth rubbing his hair. I grabbed the phone and called 911.
"911, what's your emergency?"
"H-he killed himself" I sputtered out in a daze.
"Who m'am?"
"My boyfriends father, Mr Harmon." And I dropped the phone and held on to josh.
After the police, ambulance and forensics came. We headed to the police department and was questioned.
I drove back to my place, I staggered with josh to the door, up the stairs and to my bedroom. "Shh shh shhh" I cooed holding him tight, trying to keep him relaxed. "Let's go shower" I said to him.
Josh POV
The hot water hit my back and tears fell from my dazed face. "I want a drink after okay?" , "yes" she responded. Spencer is my rock, without her I just don't know, what I would do. She'sy ride or die, my everything, at moments when I can't keep it together she does go me, im such a mess I don't understand wh-"why do you stay?" I asked looking down at her. "Because I care, and I'm deeply in love with you, your st your most vulnerable moment why would I leave you, that'd me shit of me" she leaned up and kissed my lips. After she was my backed and I washed hers, we dried off and got dressed. She wore my big shirt and a pair of my boxers, stuff I left over here, and I wore sweats and a white tee.
We headed down to her basement and she stood at the bar and poured me, vodka on the rocks. I threw back one..two..three. She downed some her self and we stumbled back upstairs. The burning sensation never left my throat while I laid my head in her lap, as she leaves sweet tender kisses on the back of my neck at 3am.
