cute boyfriend rants

Oct 2020

I know this story is finished but I felt like it's unfair to any reader to not fully understand the context of both my breakup and my new relationship.
I broke up with J in 2017. My mom found out he was physically abusing me and forced me to break up with him. The stale glares, the forcing me to have sex with him while my brother (a friend of his) was right next to us, the way he told me who I was or wasn't allowed to have as my friend was ultimately toxic. He even had another girl on the side, trying to pawn what he was doing with her as then "being friends". (... what kind of male/female friends text each other 'i love you too 💖💖')
Immediately pending my breakup, Z texted me. Asking me if I was okay. I honestly wasn't, this guy who was supposed to love me was so awful to me. I honestly didn't plan on being alive anymore. However, Z texted and I had someone to talk to. Someone to look forward to seeing or talking to.
While J got with his side girl immediately after our demise, I was kind and waited two weeks before even thinking about someone else. I know two weeks isn't even a fraction of what I should've waited but honestly I can't be without someone to love me in my life. I've been sexually abused to the point that I thought that I had to have someone with me at all times to 'protect' me from the person who abused me.
Z and I did get together after those two weeks. And I've never been so in love. I have someone who grew with me and who loves watching what I do and he supports me endlessly.
We've been together since February 23, 2017. (Today is October 28th, 2020)
We've been together for 3 years, 8 months, and 6 days. And we have two dogs together, a promise ring, talk about our wedding constantly, we go to the same college, and we're so incredibly happy. I'm over what has happened to me and I'm proud of the woman I am today.