Ruby Red Tears

Chapter 4, "... falling for you"

Last shoolday before the Christmas holidays

I haven't talked to Bella since the Sunday we spent at the lake but it was the last day before the Christmas holidays so everyone came to the final supper in the great hall. I sat on the Gryffindor table chatting with Lily and some others enjoying a warm cup of tea, as I heard Sirius complaining about how he had to spend his holidays with his strict family. "My snake cousins and brother will be there and Mom probably always will tell me how I'm a disappointment to the family because I'm not in Slytherin like the dumb rest of my family..."he said. "Come on Sirius" I interrupted his to be honest pretty annoying speech "I'm sure they're not that shitty" I said looking over to the Slytherin table." You got to be kidding me Ffur", he answered "I know you don't know Regulus and Narcissa that well but you do for sure know my weirdest cousin Bellatrix, you even sat next to her during potion class! And anyways you're not the one to say anything don't you always spent your holidays at Hogwarts because you can't stand your own family?" I swallowed heavily and just nodded silently and looked over to the Slytherin table, right into Bella's eyes. Our eyes only touched briefly but said more than a thousand words. She turned around quickly and I myself returned to looking at my tea as well.

Christmas holidays

I walked through the corridors of Hogwarts. I loved the atmosphere the castle had during the winter holidays. Quiet and even more magic than the rest of the year. I was the only one out of my friend group that spent the holidays at Hogwarts but not because I couldn't stand my family. I loved my family and my hometown in Wales, but there weren't many left of us. I'm a half blood and my non magic father died through an car accident when I as little which let my loving Mom to going crazy, she's still alive but seems rather dead every time I visit her at St Mungo's. My Moms parents are dead as well and my Grandpa died before I got to meet him during the 2cond World war of the Muggles and his wife lives in a little house in the hills of Wales and for sure couldn't deal with me being a witch. That's why I spent my normal holidays in Hogwarts and spent the summer somewhere else.

I walked through the lands of Hogwarts it was a warm summer day and the only thing that cooled me down was a soft breeze playing with my amber waves. I ran into the grand lake and danced through the water as I turned around I saw Bella running through a crowd of other students that enjoyed the sun waving at me. She laughed and looked beautiful and free. I wondered why she came towards me so directly without thinking of all the others seeing us. She run faster and reached me breathing heavily. 'Hey Fur' she smiled and walked towards me through the water. The water soaked her dark red summer dress; the hem of the dress puffed up like a jellyfish and the rest got darker and played around her figure. She and her dress like two dancers dancing close through the warm water. I laid back with my back on the water surface and looked into the blue child as I looked to my side Bella laid in the water the same way. The mysterious girl in the dark lake in a dark dress, while the sun let her eyes sparkle and gave them warmth. She took my hand and I took hers. Our lips touched gently and I felt something I've never felt before. The water made little waves as our kiss deepened and we became one. Like a painting the colours flew into each other, merged. Black hair into amber one red lips and a red dress, a green lake and green eyes.

I woke up still reminiscing her touch burning on my skin. Like fire in the water. I left my dorm and walked into the empty common room. The fire crackled in the fireplace like the fire somewhere behind my chest, like the dangerous fire that lays in Bella's eyes every time I look into them. The risk of getting burned, burned by the fire-burned by her. I grabbed a pergament and a feather and ink. Black ink black as her hair and eyes in the evening, black as desire. I didn't know what to write everything would turn into a play with the fire, but I was a Gryffindor so being brave even with the risk of getting burned lies in my nature.

Dear Bellatrix- no to formal I burned the paper and watched the sparks. After many tries I decided to send the fifth one. I walked to the owl tower- I didn't have an own one so I used the school owls. I walked over to a night owl and attached the pergament role on her claw it was secured with a green seal so no one would think of this letter as suspicious. 'To Bellatrix Black' I whispered into the owl's ear and hoped that she would read my letter, which said:

Dear Bella,

As time goes by I already wish the ending of the holidays so I'm able to see you again. I already think of you returning to Hogwarts. I even dreamt of you last night. I know our friendship is doomed, I'm a Gryffindor and you're a Slytherin and the list goes on and on. I don't know what to writ because I have the feeling that the ink on my feather doesn't work the way I want my words to do. But I'll try my best. How are your holidays going? Mine are going well but it's silent at Hogwarts and no excitement without you. Bella. I know I shouldn't but- I think I'm falling for you.

In Love

Your Flower

p.s. I know you'll burn this later but please read it before you do.

(Ffur means flower in welsh)

The rest of the holidays went by awfully slow. Every day at breakfast I waited for a night owl to appear but it didn't. No response of Bella. Slowly I wondered if she even read my letter or if she either burned it right away or a family member catched it. I was nervous the whole time, what if she did read it? I was a risky thing to send that letter. A letter which exposed my feelings in a way I was afraid of. A letter from a Gryffindor to a Slytherin. A letter, which could be seen as a love letter. From one girl to another girl. I tried to distract myself through daydreaming or reading or writing poetry. But it didn't work when all I was dreaming of was her and everything that showed up in front of my inner eye while reading/writing was her face.