Told myself I'd make it through depression, but I still budge.
"Adam take a sip, hit this, see what it does".
People telling me I'd be happy if I took a buzz.
"Theres plenty of fish in the sea, so dont worry about love".
But all I do, is desire about what once was.
I'm tangled and twisted.
Strangled, my sanity drifted.
So caught up in your crap.
Why do I miss it?
What was your 2020 like? Hot calamity.
By 2021, I done lost my sanity.
Addicted to people I know that will damage me.
So I stay silent, and I leave you on unread, GHOST.
My mind riots. "How come you didnt call me?" I'm always doing the most.
Thoughts gettin violent. As I see you telling people to hit you up in a post.
But I guess when I hit you up, you hit me wit reality.
That I'm the only one making the effort in actuality.
So tell me again, who was it that really suffered?
I cant believe you promised me love and comfort.
Told myself I'd make it through depression, but I still budge.
"Adam take a sip, hit this, see what it does".
People telling me I'd be happy if I took a buzz.
"Theres plenty of fish in the sea, so dont worry about love".
But all I do, is desire about what once was.
And I'm sorry to others who promise me some sort of promise.
Because I never believe em, I'm just being honest.
I still got demons and monsters inside of my closet.
One day I'll be be forgotten. One day we'll all be forgotten...
Feels like everyone around me tryna make life hard,
And I'm just tryna make it work.
"Adam you taking all this to much to heart".
Maybe I am, because I still feel hurt.
I'm a venting (vending)machine the way I serve.
But if that's a case than I'm out of order.
And I'm sorry for giving you the wrong thing, I got sleep disorder.
