The Sinner Family

Trusted You

I loved you, I trusted you, I remember you. I remember when you held my hand, when you would caress my face, and looked at me. As if I was your everything. As if. But I wasnt, there was another. A person, you loved more than me. I fell for you, because I trusted you.

The more you began to ignore me, the more I would cry. Maybe it was normal, but deep down I knew, you didnt want me anymore. I knew you would leave me. I dont know when it started, but all I knew is that I loved you, and that I trusted you.

One night you came into the room, and started throwing things at me. Telling me it was my fault that I ruined your life, that I should just die. That was a wake up call for me to leave, to forget about you. But I remember you, because I trusted you.

You would constantly compliment me, but then you would throw insults at my face, as if it came naturally. And I knew it did. Because I knew you hated me. But I never left, because I trusted you.

I remember when you first assaulted me, at school. You dragged me into the school bathroom and just did it. I was broken. I didnt want it. I refused. I told you 'no' multiple times, but you still did it. And I let you, because I trusted you.

You broke down my door. You said that I cheated on you with a random guy, even when I told the truth. You still beat me, and you knew, you knew, that I was telling the truth. But maybe you just wanted to see me beg for forgiveness. you liked when I begged, not for anything sexual. But for absolution. You hated me, but I trusted you.

I loved the normal days, the ones where you acted like you cared, like I was your everything. But I remember that day, so vividly, when you said her name. You didnt even regret it, you seemed pleased, and that's when I knew, that you were seeing someone else. But I didnt speak up, because I trusted you.

Maybe I shouldn't have, but I did. I ran away, far from you. But it didnt last long, before you found me. And took me, forcefully. My friend couldn't stop you, he screamed at you to let me go, you didnt. And you kept walking. I feel sorry, but I stayed, because I trusted you.

You told me I was fat. I began to lose weight, rabidly. I could see my bones peaking out of my skin, they seemed to delicate. And I loved it, because you didnt call me that again. That's when I began to love you again, that's when I trusted you.

That time, you called me horrid words. Words I would not wish upon anyone. But you did, you didnt regret it, because you left with her. And you didnt come back for weeks. But I stayed there, because I trusted you.

I stayed there, I cried myself to sleep. Telling myself you would come back, eventually you did. And you ignored me, like I was a plague. And I was. I thought you loved me, because I trusted you.

I escaped, and you didnt come looking for me. You probably didnt care, you hated me, and I didnt know why. Maybe because I wasnt perfect. But I dont think about it, because I trusted you.

My friend let me stay at his house, he loved me. He showed me what real love actually was.

Dear Sofi,
I loved you, I trusted you, I remember you. And I remember all the hate you gave me, and I loved the way you lied. But I trusted you. And that was my biggest mistake.
I shouldn't have, and I understand that very mistake. You should know by now that I dont want you anymore. But you'll always be there. I got my happy ending, hopefully you dont have yours.

I loved you,,,,

-Sincerely, Eno <3.

*WRITTEN BY: SAVVI_*