what makes us tic

chapter eleven

"Yeah, Drew Bellamy Shephard" Alicia was on the phone with the hospital, I tried for about ten minutes before alicia had to take over.

"He'll be gone for two weeks probably" she smiled at me as i flopped down on her bed.

"I'll call if anything changes" alicia thanked the person on the phone and hung up, jumping up on the bed next to me.

"thanks *no thanks* ah - ah - ah ali" I immediately got nervous as alicia sat down beside me, ruffling my hair and scrolling on her phone.

A knock on the door came seconds before the doorknob turned and a small blonde head poked around the door.

"Drew!" Her high pitched voice squealed as she ran in the door and jumped on the bed, alicia held her back slightly.

"Fleur! how's *bloop* my favourite li - li - li little blonde *oOoO* girl" i sat up in the bed and leaned against the two walls in the corner.

"Quick hug?" She asked, bouncing up and down in alicias lap with a huge smile on her face.

"Drew you good?" alicia asked me as i slapped the wall then threw my head back.

"Yes - yes make it quick *quickie, fuck him good*" i tried not to sound nervous but in reality I was terrified of hurting the 30 pound little girl who only wanted to love me.

"3.. 2.. 1" alicia counted down as fleur jumped up and down, her excitement bubbling over for just a simple hug.

She flew towards me, her blonde pigtails tickling my neck as she squeezed me tight around my neck. I squeezed my eyes tight and held the pain in my chest, focusing on the sound of her heartbeat.

Alicia leaned over and tickled fleur so she let go, letting alicia pick her up and put her in her lap. Fleur pretended to pout but couldn't help but smile.

All I could think about while looking at her big blue eyes was how nobody could ever hug me and I could never hug anybody without hurting them.

The tics got worse, i held them in as much as I could because Fleur was in the room. pained grunts came from my closed mouth.

Alicia noticed and turned fleur away so I could let something out, slapping myself on the cheek and throwing my head back.

"Okay girly, homework time!" Alicia lifted fleur high up and rolled her off the bed, fleur laughed and waved as she ran out the door.

"Fuck you - watch *bloop* watch - fuck you *oOoO* out" I tried to stand up so I could leave but fell on my back, rolling onto my stomach and punching myself up in the jaw.

"aughh *bloop* - CUNT - *oOoO*" i folded back with my ass on my heels and my head between my knees.

I locked my fingers behind my head and hit my head against the bed, alicia came over and rubbed my back.

"Cumslut! Cumslut!" I rolled onto my side with my back to alicia and popped my chest while she rubbed my shoulder.

"Up! Up! Up! Up! Up!" i shouted as i hit my chest again and again, tears in my eyes from the pain.

"FUCK YOU! cunt - cunt - cunt" I hugged my knees into my chest with my feet against the wall.

I rolled my shoulders back like a windup and punched the wall, creating a hole in the drywall.

"Alicia *bloop* I'm - i - i - i - I'm *oOoO* sorry, SORRY" my hand burned, my chest ached and my cheek stung. I hoped for the worst of it to be over but it didn't stop.

"Don't worry about it drew, it's okay. Just focus on the sound of my voice, everything's okay" alicia ran her fingers through my hair and continued to say assurances as i ticked.

The sniffing tic kicked in, alicias face turned from worry to alarm as i gasped for air. I rolled onto my back and continued to sniff about thirty times in a row before I could take a breath.

The other tics stopped as I could only focus on my breathing, allowing alicia to prop my head on her lap and assure me.

"It's okay drew, deep breaths. Stay calm" she whispered as she looked down at me, i gasped for breath as i stared in her eyes.

Then everything went dark.