Desire (boyxboy)

Chapter 7

Jacob's P.O.V.

His fingers running through my hair just relaxes all of my senses. Holding him in my arms feels sooooo right. I've lost almost all control over my own body and I just don't know how to proceed. Well, Sky said slow so, I'll try slow.

I look down into his breathtakingly beautiful face. I could loose myself to him without a care in the world. Having him in my arms makes me almost forget my past, feeling almost whole and this feeling terrifies me. Knowing that he reciprocates my feelings makes me the happiest I have been in a very long time.

I reluctantly let him go and lean back against my kitchen counter giving Dustin a chance to get himself together, my fridge still holding him up. I check him out from head to toe and back. Simply beautiful. I smile and say, "Do you really want to go out with me? If you reject me you'll still have a job. I don't want you to feel obligated to be with me for fear of dismissal." "No, I want to be with YOU. You're all I think about and I can't ignore this anymore!", he pleads as he gestures between me and him.

"Okay, then we'll go at our own pace. When would you like to go out?", I ask him with a huge grin on my face. "Shit, I don't know. It's not like I have someone to sit with Aiden.", he responds with disappointment. We both turn when Sky says, "Oh I'll babysit Aiden and besides, he's my ring bearer and we need to measure him so this is perfect. Just set a date okay and I'll watch him."

The smug fuck is smiling from ear to ear. Sky's lucky I love him to death. He goes back into the livingroom and continues his playdate with Aiden. Dustin walks over to me and puts his hand tenderly on my chest. It's so strange not to flinch at his touch. It unnerves me the knowledge that my body subconsciously trusts him. I whisper to him, "Hey, I know you're pretty much done for the day. I was wondering if you and Aiden could spend the rest of the day here with me. We could eat and just get to know each other better. Nothing crazy just relaxing. I mean I'll understand if you don't want to..."

"I'd love to. That would be great. I could cook for us if you'd like. How long would you like us to stay?", he says excitedly. I think to myself, forever, but instead I respond with, "All day if you want. We can play it by ear. Please just stay okay." He looks over at me and smiles.

I walk into the livingroom to give Sky an update. I look at him and say chuckling a bit, "You can tell Jeff. Far be it for me to have you keeping secrets from him." He's now very thrilled. I look over at him and think to myself, God he's come such a long way from the old Sky I remember. He's also come to mean so much to me and everytime I see Sky and Jeff together and the undeniable love they show for each other makes me come to a realization. This is what I desire with Dustin. This is what I've wanted from the first moment I saw him.

God help me because now I have a plan forming in my head. No matter what, Dustin will be mine. I just have to figure out how to make that happen...