Desire (boyxboy)

Chapter 3

Jacob's P.O.V.

I'm looking out of the extremely large livingroom window in Jeff's condo only half listening to Sky go on about Dustin and his adorably perfect tiny replica of a brother. Ellis, Loretta, Hammish and Shane are all in the kitchen having a wedding pow wow.

I feel Jeff come up behind me and ask, "What's going on with you?" I turn to act oblivious at his question when he continues, "Before you even try, DON'T! I know you the best and I know something's going on. If you don't want to talk about it now then fine but, come to me when you're ready because you know no matter what, I'll always be here for you okay."

I turn back to look out the window and just nodded in agreement. He knew he would get no more out of me for now. I had to get out of here so I said my goodbyes and headed back home.

You know sometimes preoccupation can handicap a persons ability to assess their surroundings. That's why I wound up home temporarily forgetting that they were there. That HE was still there in my freaking house.

So I feel like a hostage inside of my car because I don't have the balls to go inside. It's his eyes. If I stare in Dustins' eyes God only knows what I may do. I always feel so...God I'm an adult so you know what, I am going to man up and deal with it.

So I walk into the house which leads me into the livingroom and there's Aiden coloring and watching television. Okay so I'm a coward. I know Dustins' in my kitchen so I head over to the livingroom and decide to strike up a conversation with the mini version of him.

I sit down on my couch next to Aiden and he looks over at me then goes back to coloring his book. I kneel down next to him and pick up a crayon and just start doodling on one of his pages. He looks over at me, smiles, then just goes back to coloring. His smile just warms my heart. He really is a cute little thing.

As I continue to color, I get this tingling sensation down my neck. I look over towards the kitchen and stare directly into Dustins' eyes. Every single inch of my skin starts to ache with this need. Oh God, I have to get up. I try to look away but it's like he has me captivated. He just stared right into my eyes and then SMACK, he smiles and my chest just feels like it's going to explode.

What do I do, run like hell. I just get up and go straight to my bedroom. I shut my door and then just slide down my door on my back until my ass hits the floor and I finally catch my breath. Oh God, oh God, oh God. What the hell is wrong with me?

I suddenly hear a knock on my bedroom door and I freeze. "Jacob, is everything okay? Did Aiden do anything wrong?", Dustin asks. I squeeze my eyes for just a moment and then in a weak voice respond, "He didn't do anything wrong. I'm fine just have a bit of a tummy ache. I'm going to lay down okay." "Okay. Let me know if you need anything!", he says then I hear him walk away.

So I come to a decision. I'm not leaving this room until he gets the hell out of my house!