Loving Calum

#14 No Hate *

i still had a key, so unlocked the door, with ease, thankful i didn't have to knock and have that awkward 'what are you doing here' interaction. but it'll still happen anyway. the second i opened the door i saw calum, with duke on his lap.

'what-'

i told you we'd have to go through that conversation, but I really didn't want to. I'm still really pissed at him, for obvious reasons. I just wish we didn't have to be so toxic, maybe move on (slowly) and start to be friends. We've never been friends but there's really no harm in trying.

'i don't hate you.'

He looked down at duke.

'huh?'

'i don't. i'm sorry, i was drunk- very drunk. i don't hate you, i promise.'

'good.' he caught my eyes with his. 'good'

I walked towards him- I didn't want to leave just yet. He stood up, towering over me and heat rose from my stomach to my chest. Before I realised what was about to happen, Calum's lips were getting closer and my heart decided to skip a beat, the smell of him hypnotic beyond reason. I'm not sure if I wanted this, to be this close to him but I didn't dare pull away. i parted my lips and felt him washing over like a wave of warmth, curling my toes, unfurling all of my senses as the taste of him nearly silenced all thoughts.

my whole body tingled, the feel of his frame leaning on mine as his arms wrapped around me felt nearly forbidden. He pulled me in, claiming my mouth again, hungry and intense, until my knees gave in. By the time i became aware of my fingers, they had already slipped under his shirt, his skin smooth and radiating heat.

it was as if time had stopped right there, as we stood propped against the bedroom wall, glued to one another. As if no one else existed and there was no risk of anyone getting hurt and everything would be normal again.

Our kisses slowed, becoming tender and intimate. It was like we were getting to know each other all over again, like we were about to make love to someone making love for the first time. I was breathless and dazed, unprepared for all of this, but my body ached for more than just his kisses and touches—for more of him. And he knew i did, too- so did he. It was so easy to get lost in him, lost in this connection between us.

'stop, calum, we shouldn't,' i say trying to catch my breath. but he didn't respond.

calum's pov

it felt so natural, it felt like she cared again, like she had never stopped caring. her breathing pattern was unsteady and she would look me right in the eyes every time our lips parted. i need this. i missed her, i missed us. it was then that i realised that i had fucked up, so bad, but maybe she'll have me back.

the hunger my eyes reflected in her glass eyes. i loved how i could see her emotions and understand her. the lust was back. i needed her, right then and there.

i couldn't hear her over the sound of my beating heart and the entangled, heavy breaths. i pushed her up harder to the wall and tugged at her shirt, hinting for her to take it off, but she didn't react. so, instead, i slowly backed her up onto the bed, until the back of her knees touched the edge of the bed and she fell onto it, her feet still on the floor. i held myself up by both hands, either side of her shoulders, but she wriggled underneath me. her breaths became more frantic and she started pushing on my shoulders. she stopped kissing back. 'don't resist this, love, you know we both want it,' i said with my signature smirk. she reached up with her arms to my shoulders but i grabbed her hands and pushed her back on the bed. i looked right at her flustered face. tears started to stream down her face. shit.

y/n's pov

i felt myself start to tear up but i didn't want to look vulnerable. i sensed a burn on my mascara-stained cheeks, as i looked up at calum. i could make out the fear in eyes. he slowly started to get up, not breaking eye contact with me. as soon as he was on his feet, i scrambled up, not daring to look at him, but his eyes burnt through my barrier. i can't believe he had the audacity to do that to me. i thought we were getting somewhere, that things were looking up. before i knew it, calum hissed and my hand was burning. i looked up and his right cheek was red. i didn't feel guilty at all. 'i'm leaving,' i said and picked up my coat and ran out of the door. 'y/n-' calum called after me. as i got to the front door, i picked my shoes up but didn't bother to put them on. i needed to leave. i opened the front door and slammed it behind me, making sure it was a statement. i kept running. 

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Hope you enjoyed this chapter!! Sorry if it's a let down but the drama needs to go on for longer!! Any requests or thoughts just let me know. Love <33