Hope - Jasper Hale

Hope - Chapter 17

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“So Emmett has a sister?” I turn around. At the reception party, I was sitting by myself trying to reflect on my own life, but mainly my mistakes. I almost forgot I was in costume. 

There are three blonde women, a brunette woman who is holding hands with a brunette man. Alice is standing right next to them grinning, obviously impressed with the success of the disguise. 

“It’s a disguise, right now I’m Katherine,” I explain. 

“They know, I just told them about you, Violet,” Alice clarifies. “These are our friends from Denali -  Kate, Tanya, Carmen, and Eleazar.” 

I hang out with the group for awhile, but as couples begin dancing I leave the group. I realize what the problem that has been plaguing me is - I need someone in my life. I know people say that you shouldn’t need a man to complete you, but I feel so weak and alone. I watch Emmett and Rosalie, Esme and Carlisle, Bella and Edward, and even Jasper and Alice. I feel so left out... so out of place. A third wheel. 

Does it sound childish? I feel like a teenage girl. It isn’t like I want to rush into anything, and I can’t help it. I am still trying to get my feelings for Jasper out of my system. It is wrong and I know that. 

I go outside the tent and sigh, as I pace one of the werewolves spot me, but I’m not sure if he recognizes me. I continue my pacing and I decide I will go hunting. I am not familiar with this part of the woods, but I will make do. My throat has been bothering me for the entire party, and since I have had help from Edward I can hunt without destroying my disguise. 

As I watch my prey, but I am tackled to the ground without warning and I hear a growling sound. Also, I smell a very sour smell that makes me wrinkle my nose in displeasure. 

I hiss and I feel a giant gash appear in an instant - as I look up at my attacker I realize it is a shapeshifter. Since Jasper never taught me how to fight, I have no idea how to fight without killing the wolf. It looks like a new one, and it doesn’t look like he would recognize me if I removed my wig. 

I manage to use my speed to escape the wolf’s trap, but it catches me and bites me causing me to writhe on the ground in pain. “What did you do!?” 

“Violet!” I heard Jasper yell. The wolf disappears and I am sitting against a tree stump with my head resting on my knees as I try to contain my screams. “What happened?”

I don’t say a word, I just show him my leg with the bite. “Don’t tell me it bit you!” He groans. 

I let out a scream in response. 

I feel is cool hand on my cheek, “Relax, it will sting, but the pain will go away in a few hours. There is a reason we are enemies with them.” 

“I didn’t even do anything,” I manage to choke out. 

“This is the exact border. He didn’t have a right to attack you, but we are close to their territory so it was a mistake. I will make sure they know that you aren’t a nomad, or a threat.” 

“I hate wolves,” I groan, my screaming has stopped, but I am digging my nails into the ground. 

“Violet?” I hear Jasper asking using his southern accent. 

I open my eyes to find his face right in front of mine - I can’t be sure if it is the pain and maybe this is some weird dream. Or maybe I’ve been dead this whole time, but whatever the situation this can not be real. He pecks my lips, but he doesn’t put much distance after, teasing me with his cool breath. 

He says, “I’ve been talking to Edward and Carlisle doing research trying to figure out why I can see you visions with you.”

I don’t bother responding - I am afraid I will disturb my dream. A dream I had longed for, but never thought would become an actual image. I mean, I always pictured Jasper with Alice. 

“They think it may be some weird mate bond. We could have some powerful bond together. Like soul mates.” 

“Does Alice know you are here?” I breath. 

He nods, “She told me that I needed to do this. She knows I needed to talk to you.”

He presses his lips to mine, this time it is more forceful and he bites my bottom lip and I moan into his mouth . I keep one hand clutched into a fist, but I use my other hand to tangle into his hair. He keeps both hands on my waist. When he pulls away I whimper. 

“Despite all of this, I can’t be with you in a relationship. This moment didn’t happen - at least for now because I really do love Alice. I am sorry I have to do this to you.”

I don’t respond still in the daze of our kiss mixed with the pain of the werewolf bite. 

“I’m bringing you to Carlisle, he will probably want to make sure that you are alright.” 

I am basically a doll - he picks me up and carries me into the house and up to Carlisle’s office where he sets me down. As he tries to leave I grab his hand. He smiles sadly at me, “You are going to be fine.” 

It sounds like he is trying to convince himself and not me. 

The pain is really becoming overwhelming and I feel like I am slipping away from reality. Dreaming? I haven’t done that in months. Maybe when I wake up things will be normal and make sense. This night had to have been a dream. 

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I wake up in my bed room. Alice is perched on the bean bag chair in the corner of the room, “Good afternoon, Sleeping Beauty!” 

“What happened?” I groaned - my memory was mostly foggy and I felt like I did after my accident with the Volturi. The only difference was, I only forgot last night and not my entire life. 

“You were attacked by a new wolf, but we have talked to the pack and they will not hurt you anymore,” She explains. 

“How long have I been out?” 

“Only a few hours - you had quite an accident.” 

“I don’t remember anything,” I grumble. 

Her ears perk up, “Anything?” 

I shake my head, “Did you find me?” 

She giggles, “No, Jasper did.” 

“How are you feeling?” Jasper enters the room. 

“I didn’t know vampires could feel this confused and foggy. I feel like my head is going to explode.” 

“You’ll be fine in an hour, I promise,” Alice smiles. 

“I hate werewolves,” I frown.

“You can join Rosalie’s club. She absolutely despises the dogs,” Alice chuckles. “I’m not too fond of them either since I can’t see anything when they are around!”