Red Light Special

Chapter 22

a month has passed and Joey still seemed distracted by something but everytime I ask he says he fine. There even seems to be some kind of tension with him and Jenny but both insist everything was fine, I felt like I was going crazy. Here I sit on the bus Joey in the shower getting ready for the show tonight, this will be the last show Im at, I flight home tonight after it and hope that once I get here this baby decides to stay in for at least the next week and a half so Joey can finish the tour and get home. I dont even know how to feel about leaving him and being this pregnant. I keep trying to tell myself I will be fine. Jenny and Evelyn threw me a backstage baby shower last night and it was the sweetest idea. I love them for it just wish that after tonight someone would be home with me but I guess everyone is just too wrapped up in the tour. It was 5 when we pulled up to the arena and headed in. Joey left right away to get prepared and here I was alone. These are the times I wish I didnt agree to come, because lets be real Im alone alot.

I walked into the bathroom and shut the door and slid down the wall, I dont know if its the hormones but my emotions are everywhere. 

I walked backstage looking for Liyah, but she is nowhere to be found and no one had seen her. Her mood had shifted over the last month, Im partly to blame I know I am, after that conversation with Jenny when I was on the plane it just keeps playing on my mind. There is a tension there between me and her and Aaliyah had seen it. We both say there isnt but we both dont want to upset her, she is too close to having the baby. I like to say I completely listened to Jenny but I didnt. When we were in New York city for a stop at Madison Square  and Liyah was out with Jon and Harley I went to Cartier and I made the leap, I bought a ring. It originally was only going to be a shopping trip to get her a birthday gift, then I seen it, it was perfect..just like her. I had to get it everything in me told me too. I know what Jenny said but I didnt care. It doesnt mean Im giving it to her now, but I know I very much will and everything in my heart says soon. I kept wandering around backstage, I started to worry now that she isnt anywhere. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and dialed her number, I was walking passed the bathroom when I heard Stare at you begin to play, Thats my ringtone. I looked over it came from the bathroom, I pushed the door open and thats when I seen her sitting on the floor her head in her hands, I automatically worried.

"Liyah baby you ok?"

"Yeah fine I just needed a minute"

"whats wrong, ive been looking everywhere for you?"

"Nothing"

"This doesnt look like nothing, tell me please."

"Its just in a few hours Ill be on a plane alone without you, back to your house and we have no idea if this baby is going to wait til you make it home. You heard Doctor Benson Im a centimeter dialated already."

"Baby girl and she also said there is no sign that she is going to come early, I want nothing more than to be home with you and believe me if I could I be flying out with you tonight but Im locked  into the contract. D has DWAir on standbye if you go and I need to go and management knows Ill leave no question."

"and what happens if your on stage and I go into labor, you will never make it."

"Listen to me if Im on stage fuck the show Im out. I wont miss it"

"you dont know that, Im gonna be home alone and I dont even know where you will be if I do go."

"Listen you have Crunchy's number and everyone else's I will be there. Listen I have a idea"

"what?"

"come here.."

She stood up and I wiped the tear that slid from her eye and grabbed her hand. I walked out to the stage were everyone was.