Red Light Special

Chapter 13

Was Donnie and Jenny right did I fall in love with Aaliyah? All I know is ive never had the feeling before that I have for her. I look over at her sitting at the table snacking on a burger her hand rubbing her baby bump and my heart skipped a beat. This is all I ever wanted a baby, a woman who is on her shit that doesnt want me for what I can provide for her or how being with me can enhance their career somehow. Aaliyah has her shit straight and she did before me, she doesnt need the Joey McIntyre name to be successful.

I caught Joe watching me as I was eating at the table and I wondered what he was watching me for.

"Joey"

"huh"

"why are you watching me eat do I have like a ketchup glob on my face or something?"

"oh sorry I was just thinking"

"about?"

"How you are so much different than anyone ive ever been with"

"how so?"

I tossed my burger to the plate and turned to face him.

Joey motioned for me to come over so I slide from the chair and walked over. I feel his arms wrap around my waist and he pulled me into his lap he nuzzled into my neck. My pulse quickens and my heart flutters.

"Liyah your so much different than Monica or anyone else I ever been with.You dont want me because Im Joey McIntyre and what you can benifet from it. You already are successful and you didnt need me for it. That tells me your here because of the real me and not just the name."

"Id never be with anyone because of what they can provide. I take care of myself because at the end of the day I wouldnt want someone with me because of what I can provide and people wake up everyday with different feeling why put yourself in a position where someone can make you lose it all."

As she said that she had no idea how spot on she was and how much I am going through that right now, because if Monica had her way she would destroy me and I know this. Im not proud Im just giving her what she wants but now that she knows about Aaliyah and the baby I need to worry about them and if giving Monica what she wants will get her to leave us alone, to leave Aaliyah alone I have to do it. Im not willing to walk away from Aaliyah at this point I know Im not and now she is having my baby I have to do what I have to do for both of them.

My body shuttered as I feel the soft kisses Joe placed on my neck as he spoke I had to bite my lip to not moan. Im trying so hard to stay level headed on this trip and deal with it rationally but with him I cant seem to do it because with each passing moment he seems to draw me in more and more and all I want to do is be with him at whatever the cost.

She just has a way about her and I cant leave her alone, I have to touch her, I have to be near her and this is all new to me, I never been that guy who needed a woman that is till Aaliyah. I had to pull back because if I continued to stay this way with her I know I couldnt control myself and I would have to have her in bed. It cant be about that at least not right now there is so much we have to talk about, there is still so much more we have to face before we can get to that space were we can be together without issues, and lets be real she hasnt even said she wants to be with me and Im to scared to even ask for her to be with me and only me.

I cant say that part of me wasnt disappointed when Joe pulled back, but realistically I knew that we had so much more to talk about and work through. Joe caught on right away to the disappointment.