Dramione Diary: SEASON 1- Hermione Version | COMPLETED

Entry 2

A.N.- Here's an update. Thankful to the people who found my content entertaining. Will keep you updated and please do write reviews and tell me if you are liking the story. I OWN NOTHING EXCEPT MY MISTAKES. ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO JK ROWLING. Happy reading!

June 2, 1998

Dear Diary,

My mood is really off. All because of Ron. Oh why has he become like this? I remember him to be a sweet guy even though the starting of our friendship was rough. Well, you must be wondering (this diary is personified by me, remember?) what has gotten into me that is making me present my own bestfriend with such negativity. So let me explain what happened during the past month so it will be clear to you what I'm feeling. May 2 was the day when the Battle of Hogwarts was fought. Even though our side (the Order) had been victorious as Harry defeated Voldemort, but we lost many of near and dear ones. Those included Fred. The death of Fred was very devastating for us and for the Weasleys. It broke Ron on the inside. And in those unfortunate days only, Ron became more than my bestfriend- he became my boyfriend. The day we destroyed the horcrux- Hufflepuff's Cup- had been the best day of my life as I though that my love was finally mine. But I was wrong. Fred's death adversely affected Ron which made him repel almost everyone who came in contact with him. I gave him much time to cure and heal himself and comforted him as much as I could. Fred's death had broken me as well, though my pain can definitely not be compared to Ron's. But then I needed to talk to Ron to tell him that I had to go to Australia to bring back my parents' memory (I had Obliviated them to save them from Voldemort). It was 22nd or 23rd may. The day was good and so was Ron's mood ( good as compared to earlier days). I knew talking about going to Australia would put him in a bad mood again but it was urgent to tell him this. I had no other option. The greater the time lag between memory loss and restoration, the more difficult is it to bring back the memory and the attached emotions. So I finally told Ron. And as expected, it resulted in a blast of his anger. I needed him to understand my situation but he just didn't want to. So, I came back to my temporary home where I am residing after the battle. Staying at the Weasleys' home just didn't feel that right. I thought that he would understand me after calming down. Harry had already agreed for me to go, so the problem just lay with Ron. He eventually agreed the next day, telling me to be safe while going. For 2-3 days everything went fine, with him acting all lovey-dovey towards me. But I admit, I started to miss our earlier bond:our bond of friendship. It seemed like I was getting dominated by him. Why did talking with Harry seem much easier and less stressful than talking with Ron? What Ron thought of me started affecting me to the core. And there was something that made me doubt my future with him. Finally my suspicions came out to be true today. He had started to miss Lavender Brown - that loathsome little bastard who was in relationship with him during our sixth year at Hogwarts. Of course, Ron never told me he missed her. Well, I never thought he even loved her in the first place. But today, he showed me the necklace he received from her during the days they dated. It made me feel that he was purposely making me jealous. Maybe he just wants to break up with me sooner or later and needs a reason to do so. Dreading that day! God, help me!

Yours, Hermione