9. Change My Mind so Easily

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Dear J,

Were now in sophomore year. And I believe that I don't have that feelings for you anymore, but that belief was shattered the moment I saw you. You gained weight, at yung ayos ng buhok mo, I like it!

Gosh, how can you make my mind change so easily? Para saan pa yung two months na bakasyon na hindi kita nakita? Hindi tayo nagpapansinan kaya hindi ko alam kung sinong snob sa ating dalawa talaga? Ako ba, na nawala lang talagang lakas ng loob batiin ka? O ikaw ba, which I know na naiintimidate lang saakin?

I know you're in a relationship now, pero mapipigilan ko ba iyong feelings ko? Lalo na, I'm the type of person that, the more I suppress, the more I want to scream, and release my emotions?

This is so frustrating! But since, wala naman akong karapatan or kahit ano man, sino ba ako para magreklamo, 'diba? I don't have that luxury! Siguro kung walang kayo, ako na yung unang kikilos and I'll pursue you, kakapalan ko na yung mukha ko at that time at haharutin ka, pero ano bang magagawa ko, may kayo, eh.

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