This story follows a 21yo cheerful college student Jennifer Scott.
But beneath her bubbly and cheerful persona lies countless insecurities, anxiety and low self esteem.
After her broken relationship with her cheating ex boyfriend Richard, Jennifer...
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"It's been a year now Think I've figured out how How to let you go and let communication die out I know, you know, we know You weren't down for forever and it's fine I know, you know, we know We weren't meant for each other and it's fine."
As I hummed to this song I realised how much my life had changed over the course of one year. I'm now a graduate in Ancient Indian History. Too bad, we couldn't have our graduation ceremony because Corona happened. I've discovered my hidden talent in writing. I have a blog with supportive readers who make everyday worth living.
But one thing hasn't changed. My love for him. In spite of all the lies and pretend, I still can't unlove him. As Nat says, " The boy had a noble intention but a horrible execution." It's true. He had good intentions, just not the right way to perform it.
It's impossible for me to forget you. You'll forever remain a part of me. A very beautiful and important part. But it is now possible to live with your memories and not cry. I've accepted that you've left and are never gonna come back and I think that's what moving on is. Accepting the truth and not letting it affect you anymore.
Now whenever 'Just You and I' starts playing, I don't cry thinking of how you're not here anymore. I'm only reminded of our time together. Can't help falling in love has become a song with the most amazing memories. It's funny how everything comes back to you. Such was your impression on my life.
I can't forgive you Zeph, for all the lies, not yet. But I can certainly thank you for making me realize that the love I craved for was not from anyone else but from myself.
You added me with more insecurities, lower than before self esteem and trust issues but do you know what you subtracted?
You subtracted the hatred for myself. Maybe not completely, but a major part of it. You helped me realise that there's no greater love than love for yourself. Before I accept love from anyone else, I need to accept myself for who I am. I didn't think it'd take me a bunch of lies to realise how unfair I was being to myself.
As I stared at the picture of the girl in the mirror inside my heart shaped locket, I remembered his words.
" I want you to put the picture of the person you loved most inside of it."
I did exactly that Zephyr. I put the picture of the person I love most inside it; Jennifer Mathias Scott.
