I Found Love, In You- (Jemily) [M]

I Can't Lose You

A/N- hope you like this next chapter.
TW- self-harm, alcoholism, addiction and suicide is discussed. ⚠️

"Hotch...I need you at the hospital...it's Emily" JJ said breaking down on the phone. "We're on our way" Hotch replied with worry in his tone.

The team arrived all at once and piled into the waiting room, Hotch took JJ aside. "What happened?" He asked with a slight shake in his voice... Hotch never really showed emotion but when it came to JJ or Emily he always showed his concern. "She *sniffles* tried to kill herself" JJ said breaking down and almost collapsing into Hotch's arms.

"When was the last time you ate or slept JJ?"

"I'm fine Hotch, I'm just overwhelmed" JJ said.

"Family of Emily Prentiss?" The doctor said. They all shot up and awaited to hear if Emily was okay. "How is she?" JJ said nervously. "Well she lost a lot of blood but you found her just in time, she needs rest but she'll be okay to go home after she wakes up and we check her." "When can we see her?" JJ says, happy that Emily is okay. "She can only have one visitor right now, so will that be you?" The doctor says motioning toward JJ. "Uhh yeah" she says nervous at how Emily will be when she wakes up.

JJ is awoken to the sound of Emily waking up, not realising that she'd fallen asleep next to her. "Hey you're awake."

"Uh hey, what happened?" She replied, groggy from the medication she was on. "Em you don't remember?, you tried to kill yourself"

"oh, it didn't work?" Emily said with a sad look on her face. It killed JJ to see Emily like this.

*Time skip*

JJ's POV

It's been 6 months since Emily's attempted suicide and since then she's not smiled as much and she's been very keen to go out and drink. It also happened at work, one day she was stumbling around and I could smell tequila on her breath, she would never do anything like this before, so what has changed.

It got that bad that I even caught her passed out at home from drinking on her own. I want to say something but I don't want to ruin our friendship by making her feel like she is forced to confess to me but I don't want to lose her, it was a close call last time and it can't happen again.

I've decided to tell her how I feel about her tonight and I think I'm going to confront her about her drinking.

As I walk to her door I'm getting more nervous each step I take. I knock the door and I hear "Who is it?" being slurred from the living room. She's drunk. Again.

"JJ, I'm coming in Em" I use my key and open the door to find bottles of tequila and wine in a cluster on the counter and Emily curled up on the couch, she'd been crying.

Even though she is slumped over with puffy eyes, she's still the most beautiful woman I've ever laid my eyes on. I close the door behind me and hurry towards the couch and I sit with Emily.

"Emily how much have you had to drink?"

"Not a lot, just a bit" she slurred.

"Emily you and I both know that's not true" but before I could finish she ran to the bathroom presumably to throw up.

I ran after her and held her hair back

"I'm not ok Jayje...I can't stop it" she says whilst throwing up all of her memories of today.

Whilst moving I see her left sleeve inch up and I see all of the cuts on her arm, they were fresh, it looks like they had just been done with blood trickling from her arm. "It's okay Em, you've got me and I'll get you help."

I reply scared for what she might've done if I hadn't have come. She gets up from the toilet and stumbles to her bed and I lay next to her.

"What are you doing?" She says whilst I take her in my arms and play with her hair. "I'm not leaving you tonight, I love you too much to let you spiral and I can't lose you" I said tears forming in my eyes.

"Jayje..." she says sounding a bit more sober.

"What Em?"

"I think I might have depression, I cut again for the first time in 5 years" she says trying not to cry.

"Well then if you do, I'll help you every step of the way, and I need you to try and promise me you won't do it again because I love you Emily, but right now you need to get some sleep and sober up."

Even though she thought JJ meant it as friends, Emily secretly hoped she meant it for real.

"I love you too" and with that they both fell asleep in each other's arms, not knowing that they were both thinking the same thing.

A/N- I know this chapters quite short but I thought it was a cute place to end it.