I Found Love, In You- (Jemily) [M]

I Can't Lose Her Again

A/N- sorry about the constant cliffhangers but I like them 😂

*BANG*

I feel a sharp pain in my chest and I look down to see blood oozing out of me. I start to feel faint and I collapse into her arms, if she is the last thing I see I'll be happy. Im staring at her, she's saying something but I can't hear her. Luckily Hotch had come from the office even though it's the weekend and still had his gun on him so he shot the shooter in the arm demobilising him. I don't know who it is yet but everything is going dark and the pain had stopped. Am I dying? Is this what dying feels like? I thought to myself. The paramedics had just arrived and I could feel myself slipping away from life but there's one thing keeping me here and that's her.

"Emily come on baby stay with me" I hear her shouting. As I'm being put into the ambulance I feel her take my hand, I try to call out but nothing escapes my mouth. I feel helpless. Then it all goes black and I hear the sound of the machine flatlining.

JJ's POV

"No you stay alive Emily do you hear me, me and the twins need you, please baby just hold on a bit longer." I scream.

"3...2...1...clear!" The paramedics yelled. "We got a pulse." We arrive at the hospital and they immediately take her in on a gurney and I'm left alone in the waiting room. Penelope and Derek were the first ones to arrive and sit with me but I couldn't hear what they were saying, I zoned out. I couldn't feel. I couldn't hear. I couldn't move. All I needed was the love of my life and she's in hospital again.

"JJ!" Penelope says waking me out of my almost catatonic state.

I shoot up as I see the doctor approaching. "Emily Prentiss?"

"Yes she's my fiancé"

"Well Emily lost a lot of blood, we managed to stabilise her in surgery but there was a complication"

"What complication?"

"She lost the twins, I'm so sorry"

I feel myself getting hotter and hotter and the room spinning. As I start to panic, Penelope grabs me and pulls me into a hug with her and Derek and the room stops spinning for a little bit.

"This is going to kill her" I say behind a lot of tears. "She'll think it's her fault, I can't lose her again".

"When can we see her?" I hear Penelope ask.

"She's on very heavy medicine for the pain so she might be a bit out of it so I wouldn't tell her anything until they have warm off but you can see her now"

"Where's Hotch and Rossi?"

"There dealing with the man who shot her, but we'll talk about that later"

As we walk into her room, I was expecting her to be off her head on pain meds but she's sat facing the window.

"Emily hey.. oh thank god you're okay"

"Hi" she says in a soft voice. Does she know about the twins? I think to myself.

"What's wrong baby?"

" I know it sounds stupid.." she starts her lip quivering. "But I could feel them, their presence and now I can't... I lost them didn't I?" She asks me with a face that would melt your heart.

"Pen, will you guys give us a minute?"

"Yeah sure"

"Em.."

"JJ did I lose them?" She asks again getting louder. I can tell she's still on the meds as she's slurring a bit but I can't hide it from her now.

"Yes you lost them... I'm so sorry baby, there was a complication in the surgery and it was too stressful on their hearts"

Luckily I managed to change clothes before I saw her so I'm in a hoodie and sweats. I climb into bed with her and embrace her in a big hug letting her cry it all out and I shed a few tears with her too.

Emily's POV

Hotch and Rossi walk into the room. JJ is asleep but I'm is wide awake and couldn't sleep a wink.

"Hey kiddo, I'm so sorry" I hear Rossi say. "It should've been me" he says looking anywhere but me.

"It's not your fault, did anyone else get hurt? I mean who shot me?"

"No nobody else got hurt, It was a local mob boy said he worked for someone named Ian Doyle."

I felt the colour drain from my face when he said that name. "I..Ian D..Doyle?"

"Yes do you know him?"

"Uh no, just sounded familiar" I said to try and get them off my tail.

"When can I be released?" I said trying to change the subject.

"In a couple of hours"

Ian Fucking Doyle. Seriously! I can't do this with him again. I was in love with him once and I'm not anymore he killed my babies.

As soon as Hotch and Rossi leave, I move JJ so I can go to the toilet.

I get in there and just cry. All my emotions from the past few weeks hit me and I fall to the floor, I don't want to get up.

"Emily?" I hear JJ call me.

"In here" I say hoping she doesn't realise I've been crying.

"Can I come in?"

"Yeah"

She walks in as I'm sat on the floor in a pool of tears.

"Hey, I'm here okay, I'm not going anywhere okay?"

"Why do you stay with me?" I ask trying to breathe through my tears.

"What do you mean?" She asks confused.

"I'm broken, an alcoholic and I just lost our kids because of someone from my past"

"Baby nothing could make me leave you okay, nothing at all.... what do you mean someone from your past?"

"Ian Doyle is a terrorist who got the boy to shoot me. I did a profile on him when I worked for the CIA and I went undercover and I got really close with him and he asked me to marry him, thats when the undercover mission stopped. He was heartbroken so we faked my death as Lauren Reynolds, now he knows I'm alive and won't stop until he kills me or anyone close to me." I say sobbing into her.

"I'll call Hotch and we'll talk about it okay I'll go the team to come here okay?"

"Okay"

A/N- Hey guys this chapter is a bit short but I figured I'd update early because of the cliff hanger!

Love you all x