Inhaling my Regrets (ON-GOING)

Chapter 6

Hinatid niya 'ko and I was a little bit disappointed, but the only option is to understand his situation right now. He was holding the steering wheel really tight, the veins on his hands were popping.

"Uhm, are you okay?" I caressed his arms. I was still worried even though he cancelled our dinner.

"Yeah" he was still focusing on the road.

We went silent after that. We arrived home and I took off my seatbelt. I was about to leave when Raven grab my wrist.

"I'm sorry. Babawi lang ak-" I cut him off.

"It's fine" I looked at him and replied codly then averted my gaze. He held my chin forcing me to look at him, he was about to kiss my cheeks but I avoided it which made him sighed.

"Don't stress yourself, okay?" he smiled and then left. I went inside our house and saw manang cleaning the living room.

"Good evening po" manang said without looking at me, she was focusing on her work.

"Good evening" I forced a smile and went upstairs. I took a quick bath and did my night routine. Why are they acting so weird, it's been a week now.

I went to our bed and I laid down. I was looking at the ceiling, overthinking.

'I lost the baby, our baby. And I don't know how to face him after this incident. I really wanna go back through time and fix everything right'

'My friends aren't there normal selves anymore, they can't even feel enthusiastic about my upcoming birthday. I don't wanna lose my friends, they're the only beings that I can hold on and lean on. They're my first supporters, my sisters.'

'And Raven's acting suspicious, is he cheating on me? Everytime I ask him about it he always change the subject, like his hiding something. I could feel the love his giving for me, but I tend to think that if he's also doing the same thing to the girl his having an affair with.'

I didn't even notice na na luluha na 'ko for just over thinking. I let out the tears I've been hiding behind my eyes and I was sobbing.

Sana aware nalang ako sa mga nangyari noon, sana inisip ko man lang na may anak akong dinadala, hinihiling ko na sana hindi to nangyari nung una, I wish to go back through time and to settle things right.

Anak, kung asan ka man sana mapatawad mo si nanay ah, for not thinking about the situation and for not takig care of you. Di ko man lang na rinig ingay mo, di ko man lang nakita itsura mo, di man lang kita nayakap kahit saglit.

I burst into tears thinking about it. I was so cruel, I was so careless, I was so selfish.

Mahal kita anak, kung asan ka man. Sana mapatawad mo si nanay.

I woke up with a sudden pain in my eyes. I really cried hard last night huh?

I went downstairs and saw Raven on the dining table eating.

"Eat na" he said casually not looking at my eyes and sighed in disbelief. "You cried again huh?" he said, avoiding my presence.

"Uhm.." I was nervous and I don't know how to reply to his sudden question.

"I....said don't stress y-yourself!" he looked at me, then he stuttered and raised his voice.

"Are you nervous?" I asked, why is he nervous?

"It's...Nothing...I was just worried about the baby" he stated then looked away, he was worried about the baby which made me nervous now.

"The baby's fine" I denied. I sat infront of him and ate the food he prepared. We were silent while eating, and I could also feel his stares. I finished eating and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes, while washing them I felt Raven's soft hug at my back.

"I'm sorry for raising my voice at you, love" he apologized

"It's fine, love, I was wrong and you were right..." I was preventing my tears to flow down through my cheeks.

"Dapat aware ako lagi, para...safe..yung baby" I added. It was so hard for me to mention the baby when he's around.

"I also care for you love, you also need to take care of yourself. You might suffer bad and you might lose the baby" he stated. He leaned his head on my shoulders while caressing my stomach.

But I already lost the baby, love.

"I love you" he whispered

"I love you too" I replied and he let go of my waist. I went upstairs to take a shower, then Raven spoke.

"Sama ako" he smirked then smiled cutely. I ignored him and went upstairs, but he followed me till I reach the bathroom. I was about to close the door when he sticked his foot so the door won't close.

"What are you doing?" I raised my brow

"Missing you" he smirked

"Oh, it's Sunday you wanna spend time together?" he added then smiled

"Okay. I'll just take a quick bath" I smiled feeling enthusiastic, at last we could spend the day, just the two of us.
I was trying my hard to close the door, but he was just to strong so I gave up.

"You're horny aren't you?" I laugh and he mocked my laugh, I hit his chest and he kissed me. I respond through the kiss we're making and pushed him away after that, then he raised his brows.

"Umalis ka na nga Raven! Ang aga aga, maliligo pa 'ko eh" I yelled, he raised his hands showing that he was giving up. I took a quick shower and went to our walk in closet. I wore my red A Line Dress and took my purse.

It was Sunday and we could spend time together now. I went outside the walk in closet and saw Raven with a towel on his waist, he was half naked, veins popping through his arms. He noticed me staring so I looked away in an instant.

"Like what you see, love?" he teased then let out a chuckle. I passed through him and went inside our room. I applied a light makeup and put some light lipstick on.

When I went outside Raven was already with his clothes. He was wearing a Black Polo, tucked in, in a jeans, with a pair of Versol Aviator Sunglasses and it really suits him well.

"Girls would totally look onto you" I clapped my hands and rolled my eyes.

I mean with that outfit girls outside there would totally look at him. Ako kaya na starstruck, baka sila ganon din with matching questions na 'Single po ba kayo?'.

I was thinking deeply which made Raven let out a chuckle.

"Don't be jealous love, I'll only look at you"

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