The Bad Boy ~ Jaden Hossler

Trust

I start to panic. What if I die? Even worse, what if Jaden dies?! I need to do something to hide from him. We have to do something.

"Hey, baby, it's ok. We need to get them out of that gang, though." Jaden says, pulling me into a hug, playing with my hair.

"Yeah... but what if it keeps going? What if this is our life forever? Jaden, I can't do this." I start to panic in his arms as he hugs me tighter.

"Hey, don't stress it we'll find a way ok?" He soothingly says while kissing my forehead. It's really hard not to stress it when your crush's best friend is after you because they're in a gang and they need to protect you because that's totally fucking normal. Wait... crush? No. He isn't my crush I'm just in a bad moment in time right now. "If it makes you feel better, I turned my location off. We should be good at least for the night."

"Ok..."

"Baby, promise me you will be ok?" He says, pulling me from the hug, putting his hands on my shoulders and looking in my eyes for a response. He sees my tears starting to fill up. "Hey, hey, hey don't cry we'll be ok"

"No we won't. I thought that my nana and papa were by my side, but they died. I lost my dad. My mom hates me. Everyone hates me. And now a gang wants me and wants to kill me. I'm not ok and I dragged you into this if it weren't for me we wouldn't be in this mess." I cry into his bed.

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I immediately go to the bathroom and start to look around in there.

"Hey what are you do-" He sees me grab a sharp piece of metal from his razor. "Hey! No no no!" I start to put the metal down into my skin until I feel it is deep enough as I drag it down as blood falls out, tears in my eyes, not from pain, but from depression. I've never felt this way before. Jaden starts to run to me and takes the razor, accidentally cutting his hand. "Shit!" I immediately stopped.

"Jaden! I'm so sorry," I look a his hand and grab a rag, blood dripping from my arm and put water on the rag and put it on his hand.

"Baby, I'm fine look at you!" he puts the rag on my arm as I wince in pain. "Never do that again. Listen I care about you and I don't want anything to happen to you. I will always be here for you no matter what happens I'm here. Just please don't do this to yourself, and if you don't care about yourself, don't do it to me. I can't lose you. I lo- I can't lose you." At this point my eyes are red and puffy and my face is red and there's blood all over the rag and the floor.

"I'm sorry I just can't take it anymore I want to be dead I just want to die. I can't imagine being here any longer. I just can't do this anymore. I have tried so hard to be the best person I can be and to be strong but it never works. I always fail. I failed my mom, I failed myself and I failed you." I'm just sobbing into him.

"Baby, no you didn't fail me. You could never fail me. I just need you to be here with me. I will never ever say you failed me unless you truly did and that would never happen. I want you in my life and I can't lose you you have so much to live for." He looks down at me and kisses me. "Ok let's get you cleaned up," he cleans me up and we clean up the floor. He put a bandage around my wrist and around his thumb. He kisses my hand and brings me to his bed.

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"Hey, baby, I'm always here. I know we didn't have the best start but I promise you I will never leave your side ever again. I love y-your positive energy you give me. I just need you around. I can't lose you. Promise me you won't do that anymore?" He kisses my forehead and rubs my thumb with his non-hurt hand. I nod. "Good." We lay in his bed and fall asleep cuddling.