*jacks pov*
"alright see ya later bro" i spoke to Jack as i walked into mine and Y/N's apartment "Honey im home" i shouted closing the door, and dropping my coat and bag on the floor "Y/N" i yelled again no answer "Y/N where are you?" i yelled again checking downstairs, she must be upstairs i thought to myself, i saw the light of our room on, knowing she must be in here, opening the door not seeing her but seeing her diary opened laying on the bed. I know i shouldnt look but oh well
*what he's reading*
I stand in the mirror looking at what i see,
A girl,
Tired,ghostly looking girl
Tear stained cheeks,
Dule eyes,
Dead looking hair
Smile no more noticable,
But is that really me?
Or just my imagination
Running wild
Am i dead?
Or am i live
I feel dead
But im still breathing
Im living
But i feel like
I am lifeless.
I know i shouldnt be doing this but something about me is telling me to carry on, so i do turning the page carrying on reading. I feel bad.
mirror mirror on the wall
what do i see?
i see a girl
A tired ghostly looking girl
my bones becoming more prominent
all bc of those girls
skinny bitches
i start to see the mirror cracking
tears clouding up my vision
unable to see my reflection
do i even wanna see it?
then i break down to the floor
along with the glass
then i realise
i am the mirror on the wall
broken
I just couldnt stop myself. I carried on reading tears filling up my eyes but i blinked them away
I sit in the corner
bawling a river
Screaming my lungs out
For you to come and lift me up
Tell me its okay
Hug me soothingly
Hold me gently yet tightly
Like holding your mum's favourite china
But im still waiting
Waiting for you to see my tears
Waiting for you to wipe them away
Still waiting for you to hear me screaming
But you dont want to listen
Was i just imaging that you actually care
Imagining those moments we share
Those moments were we laughed until we cried
Those times when we cuddled in silence
Those sweet loving kisses we shared
Guess i was dreaming all along for that
'Happy ending'
That one got me, i let my tears fall i quickly get back into reality knowing that my baby is feeling like this and i was so oblivious to it
I see the bathroom door slightly open, light switched on, i hop off the bed running into the bathroom seeing Y/N there with blood dripping from the tub to the floor "Y/N baby" i shook her arm lightly "baby please, please talk to me, move do whatever do anything to show me that your still here please pl-please baby" i look down her body seeing cuts in her thighs, and arms and a razor blade in her hand, i grab my phone calling 999 (911)
*skips call bc i can*
I stand up reaching for towels off the shelf to wrap her legs and arms up to help to blood coming out, when i was finsihed the paramaedics came in "Sir can i have her name, and date of birth please?" "Erm yes Y/F/N D.OB.(full name and date of birth)" "Okay we'll take her to intensive care and we'll call you in the morning for further informatio about Y/N state" "WHAT" I screamed anger laced in myvoice "i AINT EVEN ALLOWED TO GO WITH HER? THAT IS MY GIRLFRIEND AND YOU WONT LET ME GO WITH HER?!" "im really sorry sir but we cant let you, its the law" i groaned tugging on my hair watching them take away Y/N into the ambulance. I call Jack asking him to stay over *ring ring*
JG- "hello"
JJ- "bro c-come over please"
JG- "woah whats happened, you okay?"
JJ- "Just come over Jack please"
JG- "on my way"
Not long after a knock came to the door, opening seeing Jack there "You okay whats up? woah whats happened you been crying" "She's gone to hospital dude, she cut too deep" "who?" "Y/N of course" "Oh yeah..sorry...well what did they say/" "they said they'll call in morning"
*morning*
I was woken up by the phone ringing
JJ- "hello"
Doc- "Is this Jack Johnson?"
JJ- "Yes it is"
Doc "this is doctor wills from (your local hospital) and we have news about your girlfriend Y/F/N (your full name)
JJ- "And?"
Doc "Im sorry for your loss sir"
JJ- "o-okay thank y-you bye"
"was that the hospital?" Jack asked "Yeah she died" "Im sorry bro" he tried to hug me but i pushed him out of the room and locked it shut.....
Łøvë ¥öü🙊💕~Cat
