this is probably the longest imagine ive wrote..
Listen to the song
*5 days later after you've been buried. Jack's pov*
Its been 5 days since Y/N funeral, i haven't been out of the room since, well only for the toilet but that's joined to the bedroom so technically i haven't been out of the room. The boys knock on the door asking me to come out but i just ignore them, i know it seems selfish but i just want to be left alone. I feel so guilty that Y/N was feeling that way and i didn't even notice, but now when i look back she seemed to be sad i did notice she wasn't eating much either. Why am i so stupid? I opened the curtains seeing it was pretty dark and gloomy out, i just wanna visit my babygirl's grave. I hoped up had a quick shower got dressed slipped on a pair of vans and walked out of the bedroom passing Jack on the way.
"Hey" he spoke quietly "You okay? want anything to eat?" i brushed passed him walking down the stair grabbing my car keys off the kitchen top aswell as breakfast bar, i needed to eat something, for Y/N. For Y/N,that's the only reason im trying is for Y/N. I walked out of the door into my car and drove off to the graveyard, but stopping off at the supermarket to get some flowers. Roses. They where Y/N's favourite.
*Jack G's Pov switching it up*
Coming down from my room seeing Jack coming out of his and Y/N's room dressed, "Hey" i spoke softly "You okay/ want anything to eat?" i asked but he just brushed me off and walked down stairs to the kitchen grabbing his car keys and a breakfast bar. Least he's eating something. And he left. "Guys" i spoke grabbing the attention of Sam and Nate "Yes" they both looked at me. "We need to talk to him, ever since Y/N'S funeral he hasn't left the room. Im scared guys. This isnt healthy for him" i said "Well in all fairness Jack if your girlfriend died you wouldn't be happy either, you would be like him" Nate spoke up "I know bro but its just hard seeing your best friend the way he is. Sad, skinnier than ever. Its just really scary and worrying" i replied "Where did he go anyways?" Sam asked "I think to see Y/N" Nate answered "Yeah probably" then it went silent for abit till i spoke up "Im going to go see him have a word" i said grabbing my keys and jacket "See ya" "Bye" i shut the door turning my car on and setting off to the cemetery
*at the cemetery*
I hoped out of my car locking it walking into the gates looking round finding Jack sat there by her tombstone. I stopped and looked at him.My heart started to ache. I feel really bad for him. This heartbreaking to see but i pulled myself together. I have to be strong for him.Have to be strong.
*JJ's pov*
I pulled up the cemetery grabbing the flowers and walking to Y/n's tombstone sitting down beside her, and started to speak to her
"Hey babygirl" i smiled weakly "ive got you flowers, roses your favourite" I placed them down in front of her stone "I miss you baby, i really do, i wish i had been there for you, like a proper boyfriend should be. Do you remember when we first met? i was with Jack Sammy and Nate at the park with our skateboards and you was with your little brother and he ended up rolling into me and you came over scowling at him looking all cute, and i looked into your eyes and i just fell in love with you, when you looked up you stopped scowling at him and apologized to me whilst blushing" i spoke smiling at the memory "remember our 6 month anniversary? i took you to the Hawaii because i remember you saying you've always been wanting to go, i've still got the necklace you gave me that day." i said whilst pulling the necklace out. "I'm really sorry baby but i hope to see you soon i love you" i stopped and wiped a few tears that escaped and just looked down fiddling with the grass surrounding her stone until i felt someone sit next to me i turned seeing it was Jack.With some flowers too, he placed them onto the floor and sat next to me and placed an arm round me pulling me into a hug.
"Im sorry bro" he spoke softly "i just miss her" i sniffled "hey its okay you can cry" and i did exactly that. "its better to let it out than to keep it bottled up bro" he said as he rubbed my back. "I know it is, but sometimes you feel like you have to keep it bottled up, you know you feel like thats what you have to do" "i get ya" we both just sat there in silence, a comfortable one.
*Sam's pov* wow im changing pov alot im on a roll
"and then there was two" i said to Nate "haha yeah, do you think we should go aswell to see how he is?" "yeah come one lets go" we both got up and grabbed keys and jackets and set of to the cemetery. As we were driving Nate put the radio on, it came up with Y/N's favourite song.
-listen to it aswell Mayday Parade - Miserbale at best (OMF WHEN I SAW KENNY'S SNAPCHAT LISTENING TO OH WELL OH WELL I LIKE DIED OKAYOKAY)
Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling
And you know it's haunting
But compared
To your eyes,
Nothing shines
Quite as bright
And when we look to the sky,
It's not mine,
But I want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there and)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room he stares)
I'll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped to find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take
'Cause nothing feels like home,
You're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
'Cause I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there and)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room he stares)
I'll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this'll be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
'Cause I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there and)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room he stares)
I'll bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best
I felt tears starting to cloud up my vision but i blinked them away. I was probably the closet with Y/N she was like our baby sister. We all loved her dearly.
*JJ pov again*
We both heard a car pull up noticing it was Sam and Nate walking over to us "hey" Jack broke the silence "hey" they both said, whilst i just nodded at them unable to use my voice "we can help you Jack, just know that we are all here for you okay? its what bro's do" Nate said. I couldnt help but pull a small smile "I love you guys, not in that way like you all got ya own girls for that but i love ya, like sibling love" they all chuckled at me "we get it don worry" Sam said "oh and we love you too" Jack said as they all hugged me. "How about chipotle anyone?" (that how its spelt?) i laughed "Okay lets go" i said as we stood up, Sam Jack and Nate left to the car whilst i looked down at Y/N's tombstone "bye babygirl i'll see you soon" "c'mon bro we're hungry" they yelled at me "Im coming" i yelled back "I gotta go baby the animals need to be fed" i chuckled to myself "Love you" i said as i walked towards the car.
Maybe moving on is the best thing for me.Maybe time will heal everything, i know thats a defiinate with the bro's ive got. And i cant be more thankful that i have them around.
I have literally put myself in a sad mood now i actualy cried whilst writing this jus thought you guys should know that bc i dont know!
Łøvë ¥öü🙊💕 - Cat
