Ghost in Me and You

Need To Be Close

Tiffany likes to be kissed. To be kissed softly and slowly with no rush. The kiss which purpose is not for pleasure but to feel the intimacy with your partner.

Jessica’s teeth bite her lower lip, eliciting a gasp from Tiffany. The blonde girl uses that chance to shoves her tongue inside the latter mouth, licks the inside sensually, and teases Tiffany’s tongue, asking it to play. Tiffany moves both of her hands to Jessica’s neck and deepens the kiss while the blonde push herself even more to Tiffany, forces the back of Tiffany’s head to buried even deeper to the pillow. They’re swallowing moan after moan from each mouth until they forget who’s the one that begin and who’s the one that ended.

Ever since that night things had change a lot between them, like the kiss. Most of the time it still heavy with lust but there’s a time when they slow down, simply savoring the moment, and the lust turns into something Tiffany can’t explain. Something she can’t put with words.

They break apart with heavy breaths. Jessica lower her head, buries it in Tiffany’s bare shoulder while Tiffany pull the comforter closer, covering both of them. One of her hand moves to encircle the blonde back, pulling her closer, while the other moves to Jessica’s head, stroking the blonde hair softly. There’s no sexual feeling involved, just a need to be close but somehow it means more.

Tiffany finds out Jessica likes to be held. Maybe it’s because of what happened to her. Feeling lost and alone for so long makes this girl seeking sense of security unconsciously and every time Tiffany sees Jessica like this, buries herself in Tiffany’s body with her eyes close (so vulnerable), Tiffany doesn’t see the sarcastic bartender. She sees a lost child who just tries to find comfort.      

Sometimes Tiffany questioned, are they relationship still can be called as friends with benefit? This comfort, this feeling, this intimacy. It’s something beyond what friends do but Tiffany also can’t say this (whatever this is) as something lovers do. She wants to ask Jessica but knowing how this girl is, Tiffany sure she won’t answer it and there’s another thing that piqued her curiosity. 

“Hey, Jessi?”

“Hmm?”

Tiffany bites her lip, unsure how to asks this, “Do you…still sleeping around with other people?”

“Nope, only you” replies Jessica while still burying her face in Tiffany’s collar bone.

“Only me?”

Jessica moves her face to Tiffany’s neck, her breath tickling the latter and Tiffany needs to fight the shiver, and murmurs, “Yeah, only you.”

Tiffany doesn’t understand why she feels warmth in her chest at that and she can’t fight the smile that blossom in her face. So she just let them.

“Speaking about that, I think we also need to stop this.”

And the lips that moved upward move down immediately. “Stop what?”

Jessica lifts her face and looks at Tiffany, “Sleeping with each other. This friends with benefit thing.”