Masquerade (Michael Clifford)

Chapter 26

Its Monday today so that means school. I wasn't looking forward to it at all because 1) A certain boy who has my heart who I also left is there 2) Who the hell am I going to sit with at Lunch and 3) I have classes with both Ariana and Mickey, both who've I've been avoiding. I really just wanted to stay home today but I would most likely be bored out of my mind and end up doing something stupid. Deciding to actually get out of bed and be productive, I rolled, literally, out of bed. It feels like forever since I've been in my room. Hell even my house, I haven't slept in my room for about two months or so. All of my time was spent with Michael. While getting dressed I came to the conclusion that I would that I would never be over Michael. For only knowing him for about two months he was, well still is, a huge part of my life. And obsessive as it sounds, he was -is- my life. My day consisted of Michael. I was constantly with him. The only separation we experienced was in school during our classes, when having to go to the bathroom, and when taking a shower. Other than that we were always, always with each other. Its crazy how one person can become a main in your life. You depend on them. And quite frankly, I still depend Michael. I question my choice of leaving him all the time. But then I think of the times we would fight and involuntarily hurt each other and remember why I stopped whatever we had.

Breaking away from my thoughts, I applied my mascara then went down stairs. I've been avoiding Collin since I came here. He was asking questions I didn't really want to answer. Sure he was probably just trying to help but I don't want help. I'd rather just deal with my problems alone instead of crying to everyone like I used to. I've picked up song writing. I'd like to think that my lyrics are well good but I only my opinion on them and that doesn't really help. I have three done, but one is unfinished. The first one I started is the unfinished one. It just doesn't feel right. Its missing something special and I can't figure out what that special something is.

I grabbed a bottle of water and a granola bar then sat the table. Collin and Paige walked in. They gave me a sympathetic look. I wanted to punch them both because I don't want or need sympathy.

"Mornin' Scar." Collin says. I just nod my head not really wanting to talk to him. "You're going to school right?" He asks sitting down in front of me. I nod my head and pull out my phone. I had two texts.

Calum Hoodlum:

I'm sorry...

I sighed and decided to reply

Scarlett:

Why didn't you just tell me? You knew how hurt I was. Knowing would have made the process so much easier.

While waiting for the reply, I looked at the other text.

Lucas Hemmopotamus:

Wanna hang out during Lunch?¿?

Scarlett:

Sure

My phone buzzed signaling a text.

Calum Hoodlum:

I really don't know to be honest. I promised Ariana not to tell anyone and we had just starting dating around the time it happened and I didn't want to screw anything up so I agreed. And I shouldn't have because it hurt me seeing you like you were and I hate the way you found out. We were gonna tell you about it about us soon, but then everything with you and Michael happened and we thought that we shouldn't ruin your happiness so we didn't tell you. I'm so so so sorry. So please don't push me away.

Scarlett:

You don't have to apologize. It just hurt me knowing that you kept secrets because I told you everything. I told you about Max before I told the police. I told you about Michael before anyone. It hurt ya know? I guess I accept your apology. Also I'm sorry for being so cruel last night. My mind wasn't, still isn't, in the right place.