I'm In Love With A Fantasy

XXIX

"God, I fucking hate myself." I take another long drink out of the bottle, making a face as it burns my throat.

"Welcome to the club." Addison says.

"Fuck." I put down the now empty bottle of Tito's.

"Dude! That was like half full an hour ago!" Addison says.

I burp, "Sorry."

"Okay, come on. I think you should go to bed." She grabs my arm and pulls me up so I'm standing.

"I don't feel too good." I say.

"Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God!" Addison says as she rushes me to the nearest bathroom.

As soon as the toilet is open, I spill my guts into it. I feel Addison hold my hair back and tie it into a makeshift ponytail. She softly rubs my back as I cough into the bowl.

I pull my head away from the bowl and Addison flushes the toilet.

"I'm going to get you some new clothes and some water, okay?"

"Thank you Addi."

She leaves me in the bathroom. I slump against the bathtub and rub my stomach. It hurts. A lot.

"Hey, I'm back. I got you a new shirt, some shorts, water, and a cold towel."

"Fuck." I start throwing up again. Addison comes to my side and starts rubbing my back again.

I cough out the remaining liquid and lean back against the tub. Addison grabs the cold towel and starts patting away the sweat on my face.

"This is why you shouldn't drink half a bottle of vodka silly."

"Well yee fucking haw."

"Is that all you have to say on the matter?" Addison asks.

"Yep."

"Okay."

She continues wiping the sweat from my face and neck. I help her get my shirt off and put on the new one.

"Do you feel better?" Addison asks.

"I just wanna cry." I say.

"It's okay to cry."

"Okay, well I'm going to have a mental breakdown." I throw up a peace sign and do the duck face.

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Banana🍌: madison is a wreck.

Emily: i don't want to go there and hurt her even more. i'm sorry.

Banana🍌: i don't fucking care.

Emily: i'm just trying to protect her. i promise you, i want to be there but i can't hurt her more.

Banana🍌: just please. she hasn't slept. i can't get her to eat.

I feel my heart break. I fight with my inner conscious.

I'm going to hurt her.

I need to be there for her.

I'm going to hurt her.

I need to be there for her.